im sick of this journal.
im making a new one.

So the past week or so someone has been wanting to hang out with me.
I probably wont, but still, it's weird.
And I actually think hes always drunk.
When I close my eyes they hurt right now. It's strange.
Maybe I'm so tired that they hurt, that could be.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

pray the lord:
for this oil slick
for her carwreck
for im lovesick.

So I've noticed, after sometime, it's alright to be who you want to be, and not who your friends want you to be. I will truthfully say, yes, I have gone through some tough times in my life, but I can also say that i am sure there are others who have been through even worst. Even if ( Read more... )

Dear black, goodbye.

I know it's hard to make this work.
When you're all alone

And I've been waiting for so long
To hold you in my arms.

I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of commitment.
I'm afraid of being let down.
I'm afraid of so much and it's stupid to be afraid.
He says he loves me, so I should just shut up.
I just..get let down alot.
And I don't know what's ( Read more... )

I think I am done with everyone.
Sorry.
But everyone is getting mad at me and I have no clue why.

atleast I can count on some people.
I could care less if you say shit about me.
Tell me to my face.
Because you actually know what?
Hard to believe--but in the past two months, I've changed, and you can actually talk shit to me, and I'll just talk shit right back to you.
So go ahead, I could really give a fuck less if a bitch or dude wants to say stupid ( Read more... )

Friends Only.


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