hello journal, its been a long time. ive been busy. ive had lots on my mind. first off, im in LA now; moved, settled into my new home. and i must say it does feel like home (ty Paul, i love u so much). i do miss my family, my nephews. i will see them soon hopefully. i spoke with my sister today, same old bs. she did most the talking tho; venting of ( Read more... )

hello journal, its been a long time. ive been busy. ive had lots on my mind. first off, im in LA now; moved, settled into my new home. and i must say it does feel like home (ty Paul, i love u so much). i do miss my family, my nephews. i will see them soon hopefully. i spoke with my sister today, same old bs. she did most the talking tho; venting of ( Read more... )

hello journal, its been a long time. ive been busy. ive had lots on my mind. first off, im in LA now; moved, settled into my new home. and i must say it does feel like home (ty Paul, i love u so much). i do miss my family, my nephews. i will see them soon hopefully. i spoke with my sister today, same old bs. she did most the talking tho; venting of ( Read more... )

ok an update of things lately...this past week has been a whirl wind for me. final packing and wrapping things up. on friday i spent it with my sister cathy and my nephews. at 4 i saw my mom off to wurk. gave her a big hug and told her to cum visit me. she started gettn upset. what else did i expect from my mother? i know she cares and worries bout ( Read more... )

fukn nitemares.....it started that i had a few large aquariums with diff kinds of tarantulas in em... in one i had 2 iguanas...the spiders were beautiful, all sorts of colors, sum were very aggressive. so i captured them and had them in the tanks and fixed their environments. at sum point i went sumwher and my sister was sposed to bring them to me ( Read more... )

a quik update ona nitemare i had the other morning: i was at work looking at one of our conveyor systems we had to work on, called "merge". i was afraid to go onto the mezzanine wher we had to work on them cuz i could smell human blood. it was wafting in the air from there. i was horrified but too curious not to look what was going on. i walked ( Read more... )

its odd how i find at the end of my work day i feel alot of emotions, strong. i think i know y.....cuz at the end of my day im exhausted, worn out and too tired to fight or hide what im feeling. ill b driving home listening to music and i jus feel all sorts of things, reflecting on the nite previous. today i did that, and cried on the way home. ( Read more... )

3 WEEKENDS LEFT OF WURK!!!!! AHHHHHHHH YEAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!

Things i needta remember, every day:
1) humility
2) gratitude-even for the smallest things
3) patience
4) each day could b the last
5) selflessness
6) service

i will add more later, as i think of them.....any others??

i luv on that rare occassion when the celestial bodies are aligned just right and when ona rare occassion u cum across music that just makes u want to jizz ur pants when u hear it!!! i mean right there on the spot....just cum. i have experienced that this morn with Broken Social Scene-Shampoo Suicide...on the way home from wurk this morning. if i ( Read more... )