i feel robbed. i want it more. i'd work harder for it. i'd do more with it. i'm better suited for it. i'm smarter, god damn it. if it comes to that, NEXT YEAR will be my year and i'll do it. i deserve it. i was made for this.

"Oh god. I don't know the proper words. I'm disappearing. Mean reds. The blues. Black mood. Can't focus. Can hardly think. So much to do, so very little time, so many people around me that have problems that I can't do anything to fix. I want to be sick. I want to sit in a dark room with my eyes closed. Want to chainsmoke, want to run until I can' ( Read more... )

Today was one of those rare days where my father and I got along really well. It was actually amazing. York open day was where we were at, and that was okay. Then on the way home, we stopped in the Humber Bridge carpark and he let me drive his terrifyingly expensive car around for a bit, and we laughed a lot because there was a woman aged about ( Read more... )

So tomorrow is the start of my very last year of school. This time next year I'll be packing up for uni (provided I get in). Eeeeep. So I've got to enjoy this year, LOTS, and make the most of it. And I will ( Read more... )

mcr or fob: fob, if i must ( Read more... )

Today I embark on a diet. Yes, a diet. This is against my nature, but I stupidly promised mother mine that I'd join in with her next one.

Prepare yourself for the whinings of a starving teenager.

Boring days are the scourge of the end of the holidays. Fortunately mine was quite productive.
Half of Jane Eyre = read.
Savings account = opened.
Shortlist of universities = made.
But honestly, the best part of my day was the epic two-hour nap I took instead of going out for lunch. Wooooohoooo. ¬¬
I'm almost, almost looking forward to going ( Read more... )

Sooooooo I watched I'm Not There. It was...bizarre. It would probably have helped if I'd known anything about Bob Dylan before I'd watched it. Having said that, it was interesting and sort of arty to look at, and I enjoyed myself watching it ( Read more... )

I have been disapproved of for two - probably more, but these are the specific two I know of ;) - things recently.  Although I don't believe the person who disapproves reads this, I'm going to write about it anyway ( Read more... )

Exam results were a win of epic proportions.  Five As!  My physics teacher predicted me a D.  It just goes to show what truly insane amounts of revision will do for you.  You can achieve anything as long as you're willing to work yourself into the ground to get it ( Read more... )