I couldn't sleep tonight, I found myself thinking about my past. I, like most, have made my mistakes and have my regrets, and there are definitely a few things I would like to do over. But what really got me thinking is the idea of clarity. They say that the gift of hindsight is clarity. That after certain experiences you are able to look back and ( Read more... )

It's a Saturday night and you're feeling alright. The drinks have kicked in, the DJ is on for once and you're happy. The more the drinks get to your head, the more they begin to affect your urges. Sometimes it's an urge for another drink, a cigarette, or for someone... usually anyone will do. It ss at this point when the common dating trend of the ( Read more... )

It's been quite some time since I have sat down and thought about my thoughts... I am not sure how to describe what I am feeling at the current moment, considering my early afternoon stop at the Lass with Emily and Sunny. However I can say I am content. I have love in my life, happiness in what I am doing, a house I love and housemates that are ( Read more... )

So I guess it's harder than I thought. It's sad that after two weeks I want to crack, break down and seek the comfort I miss. It doesn't help that I know that I am still in the same timezone, state, valley and for the past few nights the same city. I remember how easy it was to call or show up. It seems that even if I did want to go back to all ( Read more... )

I only ever write an entry when my emotions take over and I have so much bottled inside me...this has become my escape. Fortunately for me my emotions come out in a poetic sense that makes me proud of being able to convey exactly what's going on inside of me. I am not sure that this will come out so poeticly, or even rationally but there is just so ( Read more... )

I had a great day today... I went to the gym, had lunch, watched Queer Eye For the Straight Guy, showered and enjoyed my time with myself ( Read more... )

I stop. I look. I listen. What do I see ( Read more... )

I have been here before. I have felt the same things before. This time I am aware of how things will be. This time I must be strong and not give into everything I think will make it ok. It's hard to fight it but its a battle I can't afford to lose. I need a distraction to diverge my attention, to make me see the world of possibility that I have ( Read more... )

Sometimes you find yourself in a slump, there is no explanation for it, it just simply is. It's hard to recall when you fell into it and what is keeping you in it, all you know is that you feel blah. It's not that you're depressed or miserable, its just this feeling within you that something is not right or something is missing. The worst part ( Read more... )

I am home ( Read more... )