something is worng .. and i'll figure it out ( Read more... )

i was there for her . i did everythign i could to be there for her .. she doesnt believe me and didnt want to talk or open up just treated me like nobody and fight with me and say i wasnt there when thats all i keep trying to do and i was to listen. but shes doesnt listen to me only herself . and i was there for someone who didnt want me to be ( Read more... )

and now i'm nothing......

first day editing i'm praying it goes well grrrrrrrrri'm so frustated ... for no reasons and lots of reasons . fuck ( Read more... )

shit .. i mean i still feel like ummm like nothing makes sence .. i actually didnt even feel like there was a point in life other other night didnt even care if i was living . . but then i snapped out of it . i still feel lost sometimes its been like 3 months . i just want to be fucking happy go luckey for once.. i want things to be alright doesnt ( Read more... )

god baby i miss you soooooooo much.. that pic of all of us came out good.. just have to crop it so all you can se is me and you.. were sooo cute.. cant wait to have you in my arms again.. for that next first time i see you when you pick me up from the airport. and to start are new life.. you are my everything you have my heart. you are the one ( Read more... )

she wants me to make a decsion . a choice of my life of that matter . what am i sopposed to say .. ? yes i do love you , yes i do want u in my life . but thats not enough ( Read more... )

I made it to San Disgo weird .. its liek its a dream , i feel liek i'm not actually here yet eger to start something new and adjust to realize i am here and i'm not going anywhere ,.. i feel ok , mayeb a bit lost . like wondering if i play my cards right i'll be happy agian ( Read more... )

When ? when will things come together and maybe work out ?

my eyes have opened for the thousanth time .. i'm not stupid this time . no , i take a deep breath and listen to my self and inner strenth and truth and be that strong person. i am done . i am done . its my own . good . life goes on . how fucking blind i was .. how fucking stupid . it happens to the best of us .. well no reason to add on regrets in ( Read more... )