WOW.. flash forward -- it's 2013 and past another relationship .. the 3.5 still wanna be friends one

...and so it is, just like I thought it would be.

soon i will be completely replaced.
not a surprise, but tremendous hurt. I will never open my heart like this again. I can't go through this again. i'll die.

I know what I'm worth.

I really think I'll NEVER trust another person again..

I WAS FUNNY AND CHIPPER THIS MORNING ON MY WAY TO WORK. FELT GOOD.

A NEW DAY .

I'LL GET THERE .

ONE fucking DAY at a time . . . .
(we used to say that as in one day closer to eachother . )

well day 3 ...

one day at a time .

well going home to get fucked up .. finally .

what is love?

dottie is over and out.

so now i move on.

A simple goodbye would have been good enough.

what now will i do ? what now will i think . brain is wrecked with such nervousness and despare . i'm good though . i feel ok , well fat , i ate to much . but no i mean work is going well , and i have my place now. problem is well 1- i'm not sure if i'm going to be living alone or not . i mean i thought i had a real straight anwser , but i guess ( Read more... )

head in a cloud...still.. ! i dont know whats wrong with me physically , i mean i've felt like shit for 2 days now , but i'm like in a cloud , feel like this paused past week has been a dream , a love away from realality . a shit load of money spent on her part to see the city , and loosing and spending money i dnt have and not working on my part ( Read more... )

things have to change .. i dont know how much more i can take . . . .

i'll write when i'm up for it .. this week .. this month .. my heart my thoughts my self asteem . geezzz. anyway . just keep swimming . just keep swimming .

do i need therapy .. good one . you tell me your the expert !