But his family keeps calling me . Aparently he used to have this number . I want them to teach me Mandarin . But the fucking dipthongs are so hard to pronounce .

I am so fucking hung over ( Read more... )

All day I think about what I would like to be writing at that moment . But when I get home from work I'm too tired to do anything . Especially thinking . Tomorow I have a million erands and household chores to deal with . Hopefully I can find the motivation to fulfill them . Then maybe I can get back on track with my health . I've started drinking ( Read more... )

I will be offline for about another week .

Sadly this is my last night in my fantasy apartment . I have been here 6 years . The first with my girlfriend , the last five alone . And aside from the loud fat cow above me , and the dumb wigger below me , it's been pretty awesome . So I must say sayonara air conditioning , how I have apreciated not sweating when I don't want to . Goodbye scenic ( Read more... )

I had a wonderful evening . I was reunited for the first time in weeks with the intact line up of the party girlfriends . At the same time my family ( the good family that I am not actualy related to but have known 20 years )was also present ( Read more... )

My aim is true .

I let them go with a casual smile . Holding back all the sadness . But somehow I felt it wasn't over . I must be crazy . But as I drove home and I heard the song that I once sang to my youngest when she was a baby . I felt the tears form . On the morning after I am filled with a sense of undescribable loss . Everything is going to be different ( Read more... )

Dark times all around . I have canker sores . Two of them . I have struggled with them since 2nd grade . About 3 years ago I found a cure . But it seems to not be working this time . One is on my tongue and making it hurt to talk ( Read more... )

Five more days . Does anyone even read this ? I have feelings I can't explain . Nothing makes sense anymore .
Put your hand in mine . I swear I will never judge you .