so i've begun to come to terms with myself, i do believe trhat i am not emotionally stable at this time, i want to cry a lot, wether it be from being alone, for too long, or saying goodbye at the end of the school day.. if i dont keep my mind occupied it will wonder to grotesque violent images, which at one point made me vomit instantly and keeps ( Read more... )

Next Weekend, is bridgette, and maybe something else, today i dont know what i am going to do, maybe jeff, and steven will come over, that'd be nice, maybe some girls.. i dont know... i cleaned and last night made $30 and redid a lot of my myspace....

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i believe i am going to go babysit at y granparents, watvchhing two cousins, might have help..maybe... its fun watching them.... ill see everyone later.,... tomorrow who wants to hang out..im open to 6 and after like915

ran into torie, joslyn and their freind, i swear we alwqays are in the same place, i didnt get to hang out with them b/c they wanted to go to the olive garden, but i had play paractice, which was fun. we worked on first scene.. hmm.. i got a cool, Panic! At The Disco,,, hoodie.. how is everyone?

today my friend was called to the office about something ( Read more... )

today sucked, some serious stuff went down, farron i guess was expelled from walden for giving mackenzie and lindsay pills, those two are suspended for 5 days, that upsets me, i've been dying i had play practice and then i collased in my bed, i cant say why im dying but it really sucks, b/c it hurts

I made a mistake today, i took a heart, and i ripped it out, then i tried to put it back in, but im not a surgeon ( Read more... )

hey my myspace isnt working which is pretty gay. how is everyone

depressed? i think not....overwhelmed?? FUCK YEAH my piano, havent played in a while feel super bad...gtrades...slipping..friends fading./...life boring...grounded.single..maybe i am.. i miss people. i want to be a little kid again..

i kind of want to kill a lot of people, i think about shooting at least 25 people a day. i wish i could a lot... and i wish i was indestructible.... why do kids make fun of others, for their own pleasure... it makes no sense.. it is dumb,, so "Fuck It! Thank You! I Love You All!"