I thought when we began this charade that it would be worth while. Now here we are seven months from when we first began and still you say I am not ready. Well here I sit lonely and cold trying slowly to piece my heart back together. Did you care? Do you care still? Never should I have allowed myself to feel for you. Seven months of emotions ( Read more... )

Not that anyone cares but I need to talk. The past month has been a big blur to me. Drinking every weekend way more than usual. Constantly breaking down in tears for whatever reason. In the past month I feel like I have lost all touch with reality. I have been shun for good it seems for whatever reason. I have lost a friend because of ( Read more... )

Well if you don't want to talk to me that's fine but I am going to say what I have to say if you don't like it that's fine. I wasn't going to go in the room and see him I thought however it would be curteous to stay and talk to everyone else. When I was begining to leave Amber asked me if I went and seen him and I said no that you had told me ( Read more... )

In all honesty I keep crying and I am still trying so hard to understand why this is happening. I can't fucking figure it out. I know we haven't been the best of friends lately but in all honesty I love him. I will always love him and I have never been put in this situation before. I have never lost someone that I care so much about. I have ( Read more... )

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover


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I have a job interview in the morning. I can't seem to sleep for whatever reason. Getting drunk this Saturday at Tonis house. Can we say hooray. A great way to end a not so great week. I seem to sleep alot here lately. Not sure as to why. I sleep and I dream. In my dreams things are like they use to be. When I was happy and the only ( Read more... )

Do you ever feel like sometimes you just have no friends at all. Like maybe you did something to fuck up? That's about how I feel right now. Trying to think if maybe I did something wrong that may have pushed away a few good friends. I hate when you call someone and leave a damn message and it never gets returned. This could be that they are ( Read more... )

That is now my motto. The past few weeks have just been an endless drain on me. I haven't really had much contact with anyone really. Went to a few parties went to prom and basically worked my ass off. Finally getting the hours I wanted. I think I may be ending my job as the door girl at the Paper Moon after a long talk with mom and Jim. I ( Read more... )

I am pondering the idea of leaving my home and living with my cousin in a very nice house close to mom. Payments would be 300 a month plus the other shit like food, electricity, phone, car,cell phone. I could do it and have more freedom and responsibilty or not. Cant really decide. It would be nice to have people comeover and spend the night and ( Read more... )

So I guess everyones life is just going in opposite directions right now. Well I now have a second job working as a door girl at a gentlemens club. Is that skanky or what? This is not something I am telling the world about because close minded davie county people would have alot to talk about. It pays well and I dont really have to worry about ( Read more... )