I just spent $267.50 on a shot. And by shot I mean a shot in the arm, and by shot in the arm I mean being raped for my hard earned money for a sickness I'm never going to get. and by never going to get it I mean I'm going to a school that requires me to do this because this world is completely fucked up in the head. I am, pissed off.

We had our "house warming party" last night and it felt good. A "close", persay, to the summer. I got a little tipsy, which felt strange because I rarely drink anymore. I wish I had some more time with some more people but I think this summer has been a huge lesson in what is important to me. It has also consisted of physical and mental growth, ( Read more... )

I got the bug, I couldn't sit, so I left. Its fall outside right now, who knew it would have come so quickly and sudden. I have bags under my eyes and they feel heavy but I feel creative and inspired. So I went to Reeds Ferry, its dark, and the stars look like diamonds on coal velvet. I sat on the roof of my new purchase and belted out some chords ( Read more... )

I started moving my stuff into adams house yesterday. I didn't realize how much stuff I actually had. I brought all my books and pictures over along with my T.V. DVD player and CD player. My room here is pretty empty of everything but my desk and bed. A good metaphore I suppose. I now have a car, and drove myself around last night listening to Matt ( Read more... )

I am not the only one, she is not the only one, we are not the only ones. There are plenty of lives left for touching. I'm going to miss my friends, but here goes, a new life, with new lines, and new anthems. Good bye.

Please drive me home, 'cause I can't stand the thought of you and him being all alone, and I've been standing in the back, examining the two of you slowly lose your tact. So step out, up, and into cars, 'cause this has gone on too long, it has gone too far. And I know I'm just buying time, but if I make it past the quarter mile I'll be fine ( Read more... )

I'm more then lost in all of my thought lately, and apparently it shines. Misdirection is teaming over every side of my body. Assurance? whoever made that word anyway...when was the last time I was, or you were, sure of anything. It seems like its been far too long. I'm never sure, and uneasy at best most of the times, looking back I used to be so ( Read more... )

After a strange day of "events" I'm home early, and hoping to catch up on my sleep. I feel relieved to have found an answer with out asking any questions, how wonderful does that make me feel? Pretty good. I have some music to write.

Bloody hell. Ok I had posted to present my dissmay, as if I had anything positive to put in this thing. I certainly feel differant then I did 5 days ago, and for that matter, five minutes ago. Vague as that may be, I'm coming to realize that is who I am, I am forever unsatisfied, always scratching the metaphoric scab to watch it bleed and then ( Read more... )

This exhaustion is a joke. I'm not even sure what I want to say here, I feel like I have loads of important issues to ponder and self medicate, but they are tiny at best. I think for once in my life I've learned a lesson, or, at least someone has taught me. Learning is wonderful, and application is even better, so I am desperately trying to apply ( Read more... )