watching a scrubs where JD screws up a relationship because he's been concintrating on being a doctor so long that he forgets how to concintrate on anything else... I'm a little worried I might be like that. when I finaly feel like I'm able to relax agin, will I be able to , I've been working so hard to get where I am. Where to now... sigh ( Read more... )

Chance ( Read more... )

as I sit here, at school, at work , having removed my shoes to do back flips in front of the ol chroma. I realize that I as a human being , am not ment to wear shoes. I'm just not , and this cold thing , is a crule joke on me. but that aside. works going okay, I mean project work , not work work , work work , is stagnant, but it's okay , oh , about ( Read more... )

still being up working at 537 in the am, makes you realize a few things. this is the time that MTV and VH1 are showing music videos, even if it's the same 15 videos, at least there there. annnnnd because of this , and everything else, just , that pop culture is at least 72% pettie, superficial, bitchy, and mean spirited. remember when music moved ( Read more... )

been an okay night... um , hanging out is fun. I ended up playing 4 games of pool against people much better than me, or at leas much better then I wanted to try to play , I was having fun, they were hard core. but strill won a bunch , um, and that was cool. Let see, it was up and down, el hit me in the head, kinda sucked, but normal, lets see, ( Read more... )

having a salad this morning, oh yeah , go daniel , eat healthy.

kitty sleeping on my lap. life is simpler with a kitty sleeping on your lap.

I wrote a jornal entry last night, which I now deleted because it was drunk, I have to stop doing that. I'm still feeling hurt, and I'm still feeling sick to my stomach because of it. it just cramps up when I think about it. sigh. but I think I'm now feeling upset at myself. Because after thinking about it, I really should be pissed. and I'm not . ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't have sooo much I need to do involveing other people. I just want to be away from everything for a while, maybe a long while. but... I can't. not if I want to maintain my current life.

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! sigh , soooooooooo fricken bothered at the moment. not like angree bothered , like exasperated bothered. I just spent 5 hours. 5 h-o-u-r-s. 5 hours. FIVE HOURS! figuring out how to not animate an emu in a way that works. I can't afford that . I literaly have been working for 5 hours straight and now , I'm right where I was when ( Read more... )