g'bye LJ, no one cares about mine of these anyway, and no one writes in these for just themseves. if they did, it wouldn't be online. and I feel pathetic evry time I add an entery , so fuck it. if people wanted to know what I was feeling, or wanted me to know what they are feeling, they would talk to me. I need to make a new life. a self supporting ( Read more... )

So... My show is up , 5th year over, done, we'll see how it gose. I think it's grate, but it's hard to judge these things. I really like every ne elses stuff too, so we'll see. God, I'm so killed. dead. mmmm. and I'm supposed to feel relaxed. but I'm not. I'm scared, frustrated. I need a job. I love feeling like an exspert , and use full and ( Read more... )

sigh

good fucking night. vote yes.

daniel has never felt so rejected.... and I wasn't rejected at all. just not accepted. she's not not in a place to date right now. which I completly understand, I guess I just wish I was, I don't know , interesting enough to over come that ... but I wasn't . fuck , I wish she was't so interesting, I wish I didn't like her, I knew there was more to ( Read more... )

I'm in such a good mood. soooo good. I just got home. it's 1:41 , no sex for those waiting in anticipation for daniel to actually get laid again.... but I'm okay with it. because shes , smart, and fun , and I enjoy talking to her , and it's been sooooo long since I've met some one new I really enjoy talking to. um, let see , started the night by ( Read more... )

good pattys day, Re got that girls number due to the writing it on my arm in such a way I was not sure what it said, pluss , just fun, durkkin wins on the drinking , but nothing bad happened , so it's cool, pluss it's pattys day , your allowed to be a bit sloshed over the top. poor kid lets jess drive him nuts, and I think jess likes it , but thats ( Read more... )

250 ML of scotch and I realize I'm worried about real life, and I have always hated my birth day , I love you all and I can't help it.

I care way too much about the happieness of people who I've concluded don't care that much about how I'm doing. fucking aye. This is driving me nuts, I'm so retarted. there is so much of me that just wants to disapear tomorrow... who knows, we'll see what happens. I wish some one cared. damn. I need , sigh .... sigh

bad day, not sure why, I've just not been able to make anything work right, and it's sooo frustrating cause I really wanted to relax tomorrow, but instead I'm going to feel preasured. and how.. so much presure. this animated one isn't making me happy enough , but I'm not sure how to improve it . and I don't know , just feel like shite to day and it ( Read more... )