*i'll be leavin in the end*

[doyouevennotice]

so i don't write in here much. i guess it's because for the past couple weeks i have been drowning myself in self indulgent sorrows about how much my life sucks without my friends. and truthfully, it's not all that bad. so what if i have like two friends who never really have gone away. two people who really have never turned their backs on me

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[x__sarah__x]

I was just skimming through my friends page, and read this...and it floored me. I don't know what I'm supposed to say. I know that we don't talk as much anymore, but I hope to God that you know that if you ever need anything, I'm here. Things have been crazy, with me moving away from my mom, and going to school and all, but I'm still me, and I'm still here. Most importantly, I still love you.

[doyouevennotice]

yeah i guess people don't realize how much it actually does kill me to know that everyone who has ever seemed to matter most has disappeared completely from my life. i'd hate to see us become like our mothers...but it happens sometimes. even before you moved, things weren't good. they haven't been good in over a year. i miss you. i miss everyone i listed and more. but i live with losing people. it's a part of life more so in my life than i ever thought possible. i guess sometimes i feel like i have to be doing something wrong because i can't seem to hold onto people. it's just the way the cookie crumbles though. i love you too and i do hope that everything is going well in your life. as for me, i'm doin okay. i'm living for me, for once. and i think that's why i wrote that. not to make other people feel guilty, to let them know that i miss them...but i'm doing okay. i love you

[anonymous]

hey babydoll!!!! its toma. i havent talked to you in forever, but i havent talked to anyone in forever lol. im always here for you -- 328.16o3 feel free to call babes!

im sorry for everything

[pieces0fme_]

if you had to rewrite this i dont think it would be the same. im sorry for always fucking up when it comes to you, and well everyone else to. but when i talked to you on the phone that night i said how i felt. even if you didnt disagree with how i felt its still how i felt. that night before you got there we were playing hoopla. and jen cleared a spot for everyone but me, and said "oh i forgot you were here." and i was watching degrassi, im sorry i didnt stand up at that moment and greet you but i was waiting to see that show for a week. and when i went out to the kitchen to give you a hug after the show someone else was and i said "sorry i was watching something" and you didnt say anything, and then me and lauren got into an arguement and i decided i wanted to go for a walk and everyone else decided they wanted to come. when i came back in the house to get my purse people were already talking about me. someone said to jen "is there tension between you and amy." i dont know what i did to jen that night i didnt think anything. then on