i just wish i could be with him. spending time with him means everything to me...but being with him...that'd complete everything. he makes me smile. the sound of his fucking voice makes me smile. i'm such a confused individual. mixed signals are not fun. guys are not fun. lol. i walked in the woods with my new shoes yesterday. what kinda ( Read more... )

ever listen to one song and actually be able to feel your heart breaking into a thousand little pieces?

«« that's kinda how i am right now. god i'm so emo it's sick. every time i think i'm getting happier, i realize that i'm ten times more depressed. it's kinda sad. maybe the problem is that i think too much when i'm alone. and within the ( Read more... )

he's on my mind like woahh...i wrote the longest note of my life today and i don't know if anyones ever gonna read it besides me...ahh well. at least i got it all out

my head is spinning...i want you boy

«« so, summer has ended and i have many days of school ahead of me. i'm not really sure what i think of that. i'm content with my classes. jenn and tay are amazing. other than that, i don't really have anyone. i don't really need anyone else though. they're great friends and i think they will be what keeps me going. i realized that it's been ( Read more... )

so, it's been somewhat of a rocky week. the time is passing so fast and i don't want 7:30 to come tomorrow morning because that means that i will be back in a place that i don't want to be in. but i will live. bill left for college yesterday =( i'm gonna miss him sooo much. my buddy. my mom's stressing out about her wedding but elena and i ( Read more... )

If you want her, you could have her ( Read more... )

so after a few pina colatas with my madre. i'm feeling pretty decent. but i got a lot on my mind. and i figured the best way to get rid of it would be to write it in here and just clear my head. so here's whats been on my mind...
himas anna would say...let me tell you a story. the truth about all of this is...i am a firm believer that things ( Read more... )

««so i haven't updated because i guess there was a lack of things to say. it's been an interesting week i suppose. last week was insane. so much shit happened at once. on monday i hung out with a person who oh yes will remain nameless for some obvious reasons and then the not so obvious ones. (i hate when people talk or criticize when they ( Read more... )

so yah know, it's kinda weird how i have all these fears and i get told that they become reality, but they don't. they don't come close. reality has become so good. i start to regret every reason i was ever afraid to begin with. maybe it was PMS...i mean i did have to deal with that for a couple weeks (sorry to my male friends reading this) ( Read more... )

...and why i had to try it

«« so i had a really great day. i'm not upset about anything really anymore. i know where i stand with everything... some things are supposed to happen and if they are then they will...and other things aren't and if they aren't then they won't. there's no use being upset about things like that. i know how to put ( Read more... )