Peekaboo.

I know what I have to do, I just don't know how to do it.

I've been getting in contact with people from Australia again and Brad by far, scared the shit out of me more than the general worry and concern I have for everyone else. He rang me and his opening line was, "you are one fucking stupid woman" Than he ranted/yelled at me because somehow it was my fault that he kept on dialing my number wrong and it ( Read more... )

The closest I got to it was nibbling on the cord from my hooded jumpers, and chewing holes in my sleeves. That started when my mother married again. Than it changed to biting my nails. Now my guitar keeps my nails short. And there's usually blood spatters on the body and strings.

I should clean that off at some point.

Today I invested in a dummy. I ( Read more... )

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Shorty says:

Babe?

x X Miss Pixie X -ro-.....6 months says:

ello

Shorty says:

Hey. Is it cool if I ring Kambah house?

x X Miss Pixie X -ro-.....6 months says:

nah im going to go to bed soon

Shorty says:

Psh..Gay.

x X Miss Pixie X -ro-.....6 months says:

dude im still sick

Shorty says:

Oh. Ok. Fair nugh.

x X Miss Pixie X -ro-.....6 months says:

yeahh

x X Miss Pixie ( Read more... )

I'm sick.
Got the flu.

Recieved the most excellent present EVER. Ash and Lily rang me. Fucking JOY. I was all, feeling  a little bit loved right now. It was as if someone had given me a box of shiny and inside were words and verbal hugs and love and appreciation for my existance! It was like ... Wow.... I'm totally knocked over here.

I miss you two ( Read more... )

I'm back now. Got all your comments. Got your e-mail Ash. Will reply when I can. Hopefully tomorow, but who can say? Things do occur.

Other than that, I spent the last week in Motueka with Charlie. My kilt pin got infected and gross. I smoked some pot with Charlie and her mate Paul, and got drunk, and sat in the lounge-room with my head as close to ( Read more... )

I'm going to be pretty busy all this week. Going places. Seeing people. Doing things. Will make phone calls and check e-mails on return.

Dear Rai.
My e-mail may have changed since you last knew.

squee43@yahoo.co.nz

Love all of you people.

I realise how lonely I am.

I know damn well,

that's why I keep going back to it.

It's strange, that even though I could kill myself everytime I get high, I'll continue to anyway.
The major bummer I suppose, is that if I met someone who would keep me company, it would be to late. I wouldn't stop drugs. Slow down maybe, but I can't stop.

I've already ( Read more... )