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it all keeps falling down.
tonight was supposed to be a night to remember.
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dont let my heart go
so here's ife in the private sector: wake up. go to work. come home. do nothing. go to bed. repeat. until dead? who knows. ive been having a lot of thoughts. about everything. something is about to change. i dont know what yet. but im not happy with how things are going. i read christi's lj and she's doing pretty good. she's handling this break ( Read more... ) -
recently
it jas only been 2 weeks and 2 days since christi went back home. it seems like 2 years. why do 10 days go by so fast when everything is perfect but as soon as christi leaves everything comes crashing back down in slow motion? i hate the way that works. i think things are getting better though. it has been really rough. a lot jas been going on. i ( Read more... ) -
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i dont even feel like updating. at all. i just thought i should so i can keep christi updated with how i'm doing a little better. i havent been talking to her much lately. i've been weird lately. everything's been weird. i dunno what in the world is going on but all of a sudden it was like this dark cloud following me everywhere. i cant even ( Read more... ) -
work sucks.
yesterday was the freakin crappiest day ever at work. i got chewed out for absolutely nothing. and all this crap happened. it sucked so bad. i hated it. today was horrible for the most part. i started getting sick and sweating a lot. and my legs started shaking real bad. it was weird. i hated it. then at about 4:00 i went to the front to work cash ( Read more... ) -
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everything's okay now. i guess. christi went back home. which really sucks. i miss her so much. she's my whole world. i cant wait to see her again. we had so much fun. we went on a lot of dates. and i spent a lot of money on her. she better be glad i love her. we went to el chico like twice, johnny corino's, taco bell a million times, chilli's, the ( Read more... ) -
where it stops, nobody knows.
i'm officially a 9 out of 10 on the jerk scale. long story. i want to get out of here yesterday. i couldnt be more unhappy right now. i'm not the boyfriend i really wish i could be. everything i do right is just followed by something horribly wrong. i dunno this whole being together in person thing is much different...i'm really not used to it. i ( Read more... ) -
dos dayos!
ok im taking the opportunity to update before work but i dont have enough time to leave any comments on christi's latest entries. i'm awful. anyway. today my friends, is wednesday. christi will be here friday. that's two days. count them. two, 2, dos, II!!! got it? i'm gonna be such a jerk the next 2 days. friday at work is gonna suck soooo bad. i' ( Read more... ) -
15 to happiness
miss me? yeah ive been busy doing other stuff. like working...sleeping...hanging out, playing video games. you know. jeremy type stuff. i havent been in the mood to update lately. ive been so angry. like in general. just in life. i'm so ready to get out of this hell hole. as soon as i get enough money i'm gone. and i dont mean right down the street ( Read more... ) -
i miss you baby.
this whole full time job thing kinda sucks. i dont mind the job, and the money is good. but i am realllllly starting to miss my baby. a lot. the last 2 days were really bad. i was having all these problems trying to deal with it. and christi's right. i really should just stay home and talk to her to make it better instead of go out with friends and ( Read more... )