The only reason I post anything here is because i know no one will ever read them. i cant post blogs on myspace bc even if it's private someone will get to it. a lot has happened since december of 2006. it's 10:30 pm right now. just to make all of you non existing readers aware...christi and i made up after the fight we had mentioned in my last ( Read more... )

It's Tuesday night. i had to work today because we are short handed at lake hardware. i could have said no but i need to make up hours. allen quit and is in training for TDC. congratz. i guess. that's 2 of my friends that quit that place in the last 6 months. jameson i've only seen once since he left. his phone no longer works and i can never catch ( Read more... )

SO you know how i said i'd update more often right? well it's been almost a year. you happy? i guess i'll update. i'm still alive. christi and i now live together with my sister in lake jackson. things are great between the two of us. if you look at my entries, one of the last ones mentions prince and i going to pick up tenkaichi and playing that. ( Read more... )

i was talking to christi yesterday after i got home from raymond's. she had a horrible day yesterday. when i found out what happened i cried. it made me feel like i wish i could help her and be there for her in times like this, but at the same time it made me feel like i should just leave her alone, because i just make things worse. i realized ( Read more... )

i'm so pissed. at the world and everything. i hate my job and all the bastards i work for! i cant stand living here i want out so bad. something is so terribly wrong i can feel it but i dont get it. everything should be so perfect. i have a job and a place to live and a girlfriend who loves me deeply, i just dont get it. i just feel like i'm losing ( Read more... )

christi and i have been broken up since last thursday. i dont know why i've let it last this long, or how long it will last. i've had a lot ot things on my mind lately. i dont like dragging her into my problems bc i feel like that just puts more pressure on her. but at the same time i really want to bc it doesnt do me any good to hold it all in. i ( Read more... )

ok so it's like 3:45 in the morning. i woke up at 1:00 and couldnt go back to sleep. i dont want to call christi bc there's no sense in waking her up if i can't sleep because she'll just fall right back asleep lol. i think the reason i can't sleep is because i'm so excited. i'm going back to the college at 7:00am to see all my friends from the ( Read more... )

when so much time has gone by and i havent updated my lj, christi gets aggravated and makes me update it. i dunno why though bc everytime i update she complains that it wasnt good enough lol. girls. things are going okay. i got moved outside at work. thats a good thing. its way better. i got a bonus last pay period. and im getting a raise. good ( Read more... )

okay well its been a few weeks since i updated and a lot has happened since then. not bad stuff, just a lot of stuff. of course i dont have to mention that all the crap that went down before is all over now. i'm not even supposed to mention bc it has been completely forgiven and forgotten. but yeah its all over and i've founf my peace with it. ( Read more... )

i cant believe what happened. i'm still in shock of all this. there's no way in hell she would ever do that to me. or atleast thats what i keep telling myself. we've had our share of ups and downs. and yeah i did say i wanted some time to myself for about a week or so but i never meant that in a hurtful way. i want what's best for her. i trusted ( Read more... )