My brother's been having bizarre dreams. We've decided that that is because he's sort of still going through withdrawal symptoms from the old days. Next, let's talk about me. I'm having unexplainable dreams. Some more bizrre than others. I have no reason to be bizarre in my sleep ( Read more... )

Let's light candles and mourn the death of intelligence or significance. Let's quit obsessing of a rotting corpse. I just relized tonight that we're afraid of mortality. That's what this is. That's why nobody loves each other. Fear of mortality. Attatchment is a sign of weakness which only leads to death. So we smoke cigarettes and sleep around and ( Read more... )

An man grown old and fat before his time came in wearing an arm brace and a too short shirt. I stood behind the counter, hand on my hip, feining impatience, while he counted out nickels and dimes and a few pennies to pay for a candy bar. He comes in every Tuesday. He asked me how my day was, and when I told him that it was fine, I wondered how my ( Read more... )

is funny ( Read more... )

It's unusual to me how this is tearing me apart. I'm not sure what to say to anyone right now, but I keep talking. Even if everything I say is wrong. But I need something to hold onto. You're my Oh-shit bar, baby. However awful that sounds, I mean it in a good way ( Read more... )

And useless ( Read more... )

I'll say this as if you eve listen. I'll say this as if anything at all matters right now. Which it doesn't ( Read more... )

She never really let's go. Some part of her holds on to this thread of what used to be. I hope you feel it pulling sometimes from the way that I hold on more tightly when we walk in seperate directions. God, it hurts to be alone. You have no idea ( Read more... )

This is what life has come to ( Read more... )

I'm so used to this pattern that I can predict the next year of my life. Almost like palm reading only without knowing where my life line or my love line is.

There are so many things I want to do. Eventually.

My big brother wants to have a baby. I hope his sperm is inadequate. He doesn't deserve to be happy. I think [hope] I do (deserve to be ( Read more... )