in one month you have changed my life. my outlook on society, people, love, life, subculture, food. you've helped me to reinforce my love of german. you freed me from the rut i had fallen into in my apartment. being with you was complete liberation. i was free to do everything i felt barred from. i had a carnivalesque month with you. you tore down ( Read more... )

hmm. so i think ive decided that ive outgrown lj. but i came back just to see what people had been posting and who still uses these things. so i guess ill just say hi to you all and to those of you with whom ive lost contact. congrats to kara who is married and whose baby boy is now over a month old, and to ashley, who is also getting married in ( Read more... )

i have a corneal abbrasion. woo! i did it all by myself. go me. ;p

and so in one day of rain, fog, swim lessons, sewing frustration, reading, napping, seeing freinds, and breaking up with my boyfreind, life has become wonderful and beautiful again. i know. that latter just doesnt seem like it should fit. but in ending this relationship i think ive set us both free. it was a long time in coming i beleive. he said ( Read more... )

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so yea. finals:over. packing:over. unpacking:...in progress. thats right. im home. meh. eh. gha. oh well. im reorganizing my room. i didnt even know what was in my closet. i never even checked what the movers put there. all i knew was that it wasnt falling out and i was getting along fine with what i had outside of the closet. so yea. it...was a ( Read more... )

i had horrid dreams last night. i think they have to do with the turmoil in my head. school is ending. i dont wanna deal with it. im looking at other schools. i dont wanna leave this one. im scared because things are ending and theyve been so great that i dont want them to. my subconcious is screaming at me with all its force about this and more. i ( Read more... )

wow. the year's almost over. i cant believe this. after high school and slugging thro may and june, im having a hard time adjusting to having those months off. in all truth tho, its gonna be more work in the summer. i need to find jobs. plural. and i need to sign up for a class or two at some community college. i think im gonna take welding. ;p if ( Read more... )

god i just dont want to be a replacement. has anyone ever felt like that? even after almost five months? i dont think its true. but i keep feeling like the ghosts of his past girls are always here. just lingering in the room. judging me. i keep trying to compare myself to people i dont know. wondering if im the best hes had yet, or if hed go back ( Read more... )

well you cant see my hair really well, but its eastery ;p yay bunny!!


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