So maybe I hate Valentines' Day... maybe I always have ( Read more... )

I found one of those people at work...I've had a weakness for them my entire life, the 'unusual' boy. He's only 20, turns 21 tomorrow, and it isn't that I want to date him or anything (okay, well maybe... but I'm sure he wouldn't be interested anyway so I'll let it go) - but they bring out something in me that wants to take care of them. This one ( Read more... )

The problem with my theory of truth being relative to the person, is it makes it difficult to know if I'm lying to myself sometimes ( Read more... )

Haha! I'm such an asshole, but at least I recognize it, and I'm able to laugh at it. Laugh at myself, if only for tonight I feel pretty good. So what the fuck is the element that's here today, that's missing so many other days? Not sure boys and girls so I'll just ramble some thoughts here, and hope I can piece it out some other day ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if any of it is actually real, if I made it all up in my head and it just keeps becoming more real with each mental re-telling of the scene.Maybe it isn't nearly as sinister as I paint it in my head every time, maybe it was just 2 kids playing in the back yard and I've since turned it into something darker and more than it really ( Read more... )

Today I stared at the edge of a knife for far too long, studied the curve of the blade and wanted intensely just to touch it, the point of it ( Read more... )

Every night I set my alarm for 2:15 so that I can hear you come home - just to make sure you're safe. You don't appreciate my concern ( Read more... )

I found myself half wishing to make a new scar, but I don't dare. I'm still upset about losing my record of 7 years without a new cut, only to screw up so righteously this year around May. An ER visit and embarrasment ensued... but stupidity, I whole-heartedly believe SHOULD be painful so I got what I deserved over the incident ( Read more... )

[x] I collect comic books ( Read more... )

I have a list I keep under my pillow of things that make me happy - it ranges from the ultra simple pleasures of good coffee and clove cigarettes to kissing the guy I love. I have to update it again since things are in a constant state of change in my pathetic existence ( Read more... )