Wow, I never come here anymore.

My mind is filled with just random worries anymore. >_My sleeping is so fucked up, I spend most of my time not even knowing what the day is anymore. Everything is just so.....strange. I don't realy know what changed. Everything was fine, then I just wake up one day and I feel so sick. I think I've just driven myself back down into depression. -_- ( Read more... )

Why can't I stop crying? The tears seem to just fall and fall from someplace unknown. I can feel so much of something building up inside of me, what is this??????? God....sometimes I wake up and just want to die. I just look up at the ceiling and wonder..."why did i wake up?" but.......even my sleep is depressing. the nightmares....they don't ever ( Read more... )

Life's but a series of random and more often than not boring events leading up to the inevitable death. So what's the point? Really? Why do I have to wake up every morning? I spend my life attached to a computer, it doesn't love me. It doesn't care about me. If I were to die...it would not mourn. It's......the people behind it...the communication ( Read more... )

Christmas is just around the corner, but I do not feel..."Christmasy ( Read more... )

Murderous fiends ( Read more... )

Who am I? Why do I belong here ( Read more... )

just want to cry. I just want to curl in a ball and sob for hours. You know how quickly your lives can change...how quickly you could lose it. My cousin died yesterday morning, he was 20 years old. He was killed in a car accident. We were not too close. However, when we were younger him and his brother would always hang out with me when we had ' ( Read more... )

Well woohoo...it's Derby Day here in KY. I'm so totally excited!!!!!!! (NOT) I have never really been into this whole horse racing thing. It's just pretty, well...boring. I mean who wants to waste their money betting on a 3 minute race? In 3 minutes you could loose thousands. Of course, in 3 minutes...you could win thousands!

Anyways, life has ( Read more... )

Well, I am redoing my journal. I started writing it before and well.........i just decided i should start over ( Read more... )