so i had plans of updating this but after reading Tina's i realize anything i could put here would pale in comparison... so i'm just going to play videogames because i'm sorta good at those.

and they're so much more simple than real life.

i think i want to go home.

the sad thing is that i'm on here a lot but just never have a desire to write about my life but here goes ( Read more... )

I came on here with a reason to write bout things I've seen but while I was logging in, "The Real Slim Shady" jusdt came on-this song came out towards the end of my fresh year in college. Hardly seems that long ago, but in retrospect it was like 8 years ago. Eight years just gone ( Read more... )

So my x-mas turned out pretty well. So weird to be forming a "new" family. I did have to work but it was chill, everybody waited to have dinner with me. I'm really thankful for everybody here ( Read more... )

not sure if women use this term, but among men, when a guy has a girl "on the ropes" and close closing the deal, a phrase we use is "pull the trigger." Over the last few weeks it's become increasingly obviously that I can't pull the trigger ( Read more... )

everybody sucks. I don't hate everybody..that would be cruel and against my nautre, but people really do suck...sorta in a general overstatement kinda way. I think the only thing worst than dealing with all the jackasses i see daily(and believe me..one clerk job and one sales job,my per day jackass interaction has increased by like 3000%) is having ( Read more... )

actually it's not 100% terrible. I do feel slightly healthier and I don't miss the hang overs. But this sorta "forced" into it by lack of funds/contacts/oppertunities makes it seems a lot worse than it probably is ( Read more... )

I've been up for 6:30am..for a host of reasons I won't really go into. Anyway just laying here listening to the 90's station on sirius and they just played that song "brick" by ben folds and there is a line in the song when they're driving away from the clinic and they're both in the car and it's something like "she's alone..and I'm alone ( Read more... )

I need to update this...i keep coming here to do it and then never do and then a week goes by and have even more stuff to update. So here is an update ( Read more... )