thanks emily and britt. lol. for being my only
readers. that made me laugh. :)

im not sure why i write in this thing anymore. no one
responds. i dont think anyone reads it. oh well. i
think im obsessed with asiago cheese bagels. and anis
cds arent very good after like 2000. so sad cos i
really like her. shrug

im gonna do my best swan dive out into open
water...and i dont care if they eat me alive...

i got my new phone. its hot. only 18 more days! send
gabe good vibes please. hes sick

if i dont start and finish my period before i visit ( Read more... )

there are 21 days until i go see gabe. He sounded so ( Read more... )

sometime today one of our hampsters passed away. She
passed while sleeping. :( i wish my boy were here..

i want to believe that im capable of being loved. I ( Read more... )

romance. Lots of romance. Something to get rid of
whatever is making me cough. My gabrial. More honesty.
To find something im great at. To write again. A hug
from him. A kiss from him. A good belly laugh. A slow
dance. To sing him to sleep. To feel needed sometimes.
To get a tattoo. To get a new piercing. To run into
his arms.

im in a really bad mood. Just feel mad.