im sick. So tonight will consist of the following:
laying on the couch, talking to gabrial, eating pizza
and watching every scary movie we own.

still running i cant stand to stay and fight..ill
trade these ashes for the promise of another chance to
make things right..so much for good intentions. Still
waiting for the words to follow like water sand and
stone i know im not alone..

no one has to listen to me whine anymore. Im not
bothering anyone with my petty problems. Um.. Im gonna
go enter reports now. Have a good day

im so sleepy. Up all night. I thought i had my tattoo
picked out but i dont after all, so ive been trying to
think of something else. I probably will end up not
getting one. Wow my head hurts

im such a freakin moron. someone knock some sense into
me. im sorry gabe. i love you

todays one of those days when i could leave cincinnati
and never look back. And its also one of those days
when i cry because i cant.

so im watching the documentary on the l word. People
were talking about how queers are now labeling
themselves and each other according to which
characters theyre like. Ive been called a jenny.. And
when the show first came out, i was referred to as a
shane. Comments? Questions? Witty quips?

so last night on the phone with gabe (erin), he was on
romance overload. He plans to make this next 6 months
worth it. I really am feeling more okay with it. Hes
being really sweet. Yeah were going for the long-haul.
I love my boy. I love you Gabrial

one, am i dead or invisible? No matter who i talk to
or try to talk to about anything, they seem to not
hear me. And two, is there an award for how much
someone can cry in one day?

there are just some people im never going to like no
matter how bad others might want me to. especially
since they seem to have no respect for me. No, I will
not be getting more specific like this until i feel i
need to. Just needed to vent.