The poisonous perfume of cigarettes and coffee fill the air, muffled music from the speakers is barely audible, and the cold December air nips at my face; it's another closing night at the Koffee Klatch, another empty night that'll end with me in my bed alone, leaving me to masturbate to my fantasies that are just that--fantasies. Its a routine I' ( Read more... )

there's a weird sense of peace within. it's nice, but almost eerie... like the calm before the storm

He and I are done. He needs to mature and see if he can be ready for a relationship, so i gave what he wanted. I suppose freedom is the best birthday gift, and thats what i gave him.

so im going to Las Vegas for the Model United Nations Conference in November and then Ill be in New York in the spring for the other conference... if anyone else is going to be in the area hit me up :]

The higher the price of crude oil is sold for the less freedoms (measured in free and fair elections held, newspapers opened or closed, arbitrary arrests, reformers elected to parliaments, economic reform projects started or stopped, companies privatized and companies nationalized, and etc. from the research organization Freedom House) in oil ( Read more... )

Sometimes i like to let my fingers dance across the keyboard, like I'm actually writing something of importance. I type random phrases that don't make sense, jumble of letters that i wish were words, or when i can't be creative i type "fuck" over and over.

I wish i were smarter, than i would have a better life.

I'm not tough enough. Thicker skin... i need thicker skin. I need to become better than them and stronger.

I'm bad news

Let the river kiss your knees ( Read more... )

I've been bottling most of my emotions inside and letting the bitterness, anger, and depression fester. There are many people out there who hate my guts and will love to see that I've finally cracked and lost. The mask of indifference and arrogance that I'm wearing covers me no better than a wet white t-shirt on a pair of tits in "Maxim" (I'll ( Read more... )