Well...I figured I should probably write some stuff in here now since I still look back on my archive and I figured it would be helpful for later years to actually write something about what's going on...my own little time capsule you may say...This summer (unlike my last summer post) is completely different than all of my other college summers. I ( Read more... )

I feel like I should be more accomplished...like I should have done a lot more with my life up to this point...I look around and envy and I don't think that's how life is supposed to be lived...

I wonder why dreams affect me so much. I had one of the weirdest dreams ever last night...I was marrying someone else to get a job...but I loved it because I want to feel that...I want to feel so close to someone that I know they feel exactly the way because they've made the same proclamations...I'm so sick of digging around and pulling at strings ( Read more... )

 I've finally gone over the edge and screwed the whole thing up. The one good thing in my life and it could be gone just like that...it's not even my choice. How do you sway someone without being pathetic. And that's just exactly how I feel grasping at air, at nothing...waiting for a sign...anything to tell me how to feel...someone just put me out ( Read more... )

I'm sitting her at my job...it's like 8:40 in the morning. ummm...my summer...its kinda exactly the same as every summer for the past 3 years. Work during the week...chillin' with Ricky on the weekends waiting for school to begin. Although now I get to chill with my Kari because she's back from Cali!!! woot woot. umm...I'm getting my wisdom teeth ( Read more... )

ugh...seriously...after going through my archive of birthday entries...nothing ever changes...except my depression this year started earlier and it stems from something physical this year. There's 11 hours and 10 minutes until my birthday and I'm absolutly lethargic for lack of a better word...I have people coming over tonight and I just feel blah ( Read more... )

I'm in Green Bay. Went to the Fugly Sweater Party last night. Was mucho fun. I miss Green Bay so much I can't wait to come back for school. Ok...I promise I'll do a real entry soon. No time now...ciggs and food are a must.

yesterday was the hardest thing I've ever had to do...

Saying goodbye was so intense. I can't imagine not being able to see that face looking back at me every morning when I open my eyes for the first. I can't imagine not running my fingers through his hair while he sleeps. I can't imagine not being able to hear his laugh or see his smile whenever ( Read more... )

I don't think I've ever been this confused in my entire life. I'm so scared and sad and i feel like crying all the time, but then the other part of me is just so excited. four months isn't really that long is it? See...the weird thing is, in some scenarios, like with my family, it's not, but when it comes to Ricky 4 days is too long. I really don't ( Read more... )

"No, I thought not. You have not asked me, for instance, what is my favorite flavor of jam, to check that I am indeed Professor Dumbledore and not an imposter."

"For future reference, Harry, it is raspberry...although of course, if I were a Death Eater, I would have been sure to research my own jam preferences before impersonating myself."