i just want to say that im sorry to everyone ive been depressed out of my mind lately and ive been takin it out on everyone else i dont deserve to have friends and i kno that and amber im sorry i really am, i siad some shit that i shouldnt have and i dont expect you to forgive me or want to be my friend but i just want you to kno that im sorry i ( Read more... )

im really sick of trying to make everyone happy if one persons happy then some one else is fucking pissed off about it i cant take this i try so fucking hard to be a good friend to everyone n not to upset anyone but i always do i cant take it im fucking sorry! i keep ripping myself apart to make sure no one is upset but i keep fucking up i have ( Read more... )

god im bored outta my mind ive hardly talked to anyone lately ive been really depressed like i want to be left alone but then when i am alone i need some one around i dont know how to explain it i cant stand feeling like this anymore im just so confused about everything i dont feel like i have real friends anymore cept for molly but i hardly get to ( Read more... )

i havent really done anyhting too exciting all my "friends" are really pissing me off they enjoy fucking with my head i guess its fun for them or something n the other day i was really fucked up n mike told me that i needed to go to youth group so i was like ok i dont have anything else to do n he knew that i was stoned so i just talked to him the ( Read more... )

ya so this week was a lot of fun on wednesday i skipped school n me n some of my friends went to a green day concert in moline and me and katie were in front row omg fuckin sweet and it was just so fuckin awesome and there was so much fuckin pot every where that you could get high just from breathing which was totally hardcore and it was just an ( Read more... )

holy shit last night was so much fun at keris party! there wasnt any alcohol bc her mom wouldnt let us with so many ppl there and plus this cop kept driving by but o well n cory's band played for like 3 hours n it was soooo awesome n theyre all really hot n sarah got there n she came up to me and told me that she had some pot n asked if i wanted ( Read more... )

im sick of pretending that i dont care about losing my best friend i keep telling ppl that it doesnt bother me i even laugh about it like i could care less but i care more than even i thought possible its all i can think about i try to replace you n ya i have good freinds and theyre great to hang out with but i cant talk to them about the things i ( Read more... )

so i had soccer practice from 8-10 this morning n i fucked up my knee again! n i started school yesterday i have home room with v sarah kerri n crystal!!! fuckin sweet! n alex is in my spanish class n katie n matt are in my p.e. class n parker is in my computer orientation class which is totally awesome! n i got the new history teacher n hes ( Read more... )

i havent written in a while so i dont really remember much um my cousin stayed for a while n we listened to music n stuff then he left but hes coming back today which is cool n i havent hung out with alex in for ever bc he'lll call me n i wont be home n then i'll call him and he wont be home n such n i talked to sarah yesterday! yay! shes my best ( Read more... )

this weekend was so amazing i had the best time ever on thursday i went to chicago n went to like my aunt n uncles pre wedding party thing n my aunt was buyin bunch of my cousins n me drinks n it was awsome n then we walked outside n saw this guy on his bike get hit by a car n it was freakin awsome! (dont wrry he was still alive) n then we went ( Read more... )