i just got back from go karting. it was fun =) i laughed. lots. and i got told off for bumping. lots. and then i was told i was a nightmare and he stuck his tongue out at me. har har! heh the guy that worked there was nice. dan was there too. we didnt speak, it was like some unwritten rule not to talk to each other or even acknowledge eachother. ( Read more... )

i wrote a letter to alex today. i cant believe its been 6 and a half months. i got out my box with all my random letters and cards and pictures that have so much meaning that i have to hide them. i found a letter alex had written me not long after we split up and one from when we were first together. he called me "unique and special"; and believe ( Read more... )

colin died last night. it's so weird, i only spoke to him a couple of days ago and my dad spoke to him yesterday afternoon. i've known him all my life, since i was born, since i started walking, since i started school, since i started growing up. i didnt cry at the news, not until i wrote the very first line in this. my parents best friends: colin ( Read more... )

just got back from go karting with thar ladies. kerfuckingpow!!!!! it was awesome. i got the fastest lap too. wheeeeeeeeeeeeee!

met one of dan's work people/friends/whateveridontcare. he was really nice. made me laugh and he saved me twice when i crashed, har har! when he found out who i was he said "you're luci?!! - what are doing going out with ( Read more... )

he called me 'sweets'

i smiled. yeah.

i'm half asleep so please excuse any spelling errors and yeah. last night was both good and a complete disaster. hmmmppffff. charlotte and myself got through 2 bottles of wine, i dont know if i was doing it to forget things or doing it because it made things ok for a while, yet as you can imagine i was pretty wrecked ( Read more... )

so yeah. xmas is over and it was good. did all the family stooof and all that palavor. its how it should be. safe. i didnt feel too good yesterday, my mum kept fussing around me. i just kept feeling tired and sick. + i have the doctors next week. bluuuhhhh. bite me ( Read more... )

so its 2am. wheeeeeeeeeeee. when i'm tired i giggle. but tonight i feel different. i feel pretty run-down and low so my giggles hurt. the phone call with dan at midnight was harsh, cold, painful and exactly what i needed to hear. he told me the truth. his words were so bland and through each harsh word i heard the un-caringness in his voice. i ( Read more... )

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i am actually in love with all of my friends. it was bella's party tonight and we went over and had a few glasses of wine and a few cigarettes and a few chats and a few hugs and a few smiles and played with the table football and danced to music and they were all so fookin lovely to me and yeah. no-one mentioned dan until i left. bella came up to ( Read more... )