my house is world war three in the making. my brothers a state, he doesnt look like my brother, he's so thin and quiet and i'm so worried about him its unreal. and all i could do was tell him i loved him, but that solves nothing. everyones worried he'll do soemthing stupid but no-one says it outloud; some unwritten rule not to speak of the worst. ( Read more... )

i cant stop smiling. daniel's been texting me. and you know the feeling when you just cant wipe the smile off your face? i have that.

so the gig was awesome. the whole day was pretty fucking awesome to be honest. i am officially in love with camden. it just oozes pure sex. we had a quiet smoke under the bridge by the canal and then made our way to a small coffee shop down the street. we sat in there for well over an hour and ate ice cream despite it raining outside. i even sat ( Read more... )

just use me again. i'm just your cheap porcelien whore.

i've given up. i havent really spoken to him in days. he hasnt been in touch. not once. hah. it's strange how you can feel used, yet you know you're to blame just as much ( Read more... )

james is leaving work tomorrow. he's going abroad. arrrghhbaaaaa! i'm going to miss him. our fag/hag talks in the kitchen at work got me through my shifts. he was the fag i was the hag. har har! i loved the way i'd come in at the start of my shift and he'd look at me and try and make out if i was in a good mood. if i was, he'd put it down to me ( Read more... )

things are ok ( Read more... )

times are going by and it scares me that maybe i'm forgetting the most important things to me. i'm trying to work out what i want to do with my life and having no luck in the process. i have contemplated dropping out of college only to realise i dont have the bollocks to. besides, its only a year and a half left. i say only...hmm ( Read more... )

i hate being in love with a cunt.

you can all fuck off.

i thought it was too good to be true i found somebody who understands me someone who would help me to get through and fill an emptiness i had inside me but you kept inside and I just denied some things that we should have both said i knew it was too good to be true cause i'm the only one who understands me what happened to us we used to be so ( Read more... )

today was ok actually. did all thar usual college stoof
and blah blah blah. i have my first a-level next week which
scares me. and y'know that really bad feeling that you're going to
fail? well i have that.
mmm thar crush from a while back is top notch -thumbs up- he's so pretteh <3 we always see each other and he'll punch me in my arm to get my ( Read more... )