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I seem to be shrinking more and more into my head.
I'm on the wrong meds again. I need to my prescription renewed. I forgot what it's like to feel this way. I didn't think It was possible to forget just how bad it gets. Just how hopeless I end up.
How did I survive so long like this? Cause make no mistake, it's only surviving, not living.
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One of those days.
I feel so very sad and lonely today. I can't tell if its because its Mother's Day and I'm all by myself, or if its my meds not working, Justine of those days where you feel shitty or all of the above.
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Creativity should not take a backseat, yet that's where I usually find it.
I feel out of sorts. Big surprise, it seems to be the only time I post here.
Feeling good about most things in my life... Weight loss is moving along, slow but steady. I've lost 10lbs and its still working.
But I'm feeling unsatisfied and unfulfilled in the "work" portion of my life. Not a big surprise, I work in insurance for Pete's sake.
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I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.. I don't know why i can't just fucking chill... I hate what I mess this house is, I hate how i feel I'm the one who is perpetualy doing the bulk of the cleaning... I hate how shit is just all over the place and I hate trying to figure out what to eat and I hate how shitty everything is in the place and ( Read more... ) -
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I don't want to be fat anymore... More to the point, I don't want to hate myself when I look in the mirror.. My emotions are such a fucking seesaw whenever I look in the mirror ( Read more... ) -
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Can I not feel this way? Please?
The continual comparing myself to any person I sit beside. The thoughts that they must be making fun of me in their heads.
It's all so unhealthy and unnecessary. I know that. I know I shouldn't pay the least bit of attention to that little voice of doubt. But how do you ignore your own thoughts?
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Progress
I'm quite proud of myself today. Despite the fact I didn't sleep great and I'm still sick. I got up on time today. I finished the dishes. I cleaned the cat litter and took out the garbage. All this before showering and getting ready for work. And I got out on time caught the bus and was at work a couple minutes early.
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The Dress ~ DIY ~ Part 1
The Wedding Dress. The seemingly, the single most powerful element in the wedding. The item that I believe started the whole modern wedding craze. The item that often costs more than the rest of the wedding combined. The item that so many think the wedding should revolve around. The item that so many put the biggest emphasis on, ranking its ( Read more... )