Today I realized why I have been so stressed out about this baby. The reason is because I did not really want this one...well I do just not yet. I know that sounds horrible and I feel horrible saying it. But the only reason that I was okay/trying to get pregnant now is because I knew that I would not have the opportunity in the future. I'm scared ( Read more... )

is the name we finally went with. She was born January 8, 2007 at 8:22 PM. I have to say that it is true that no one can prepare you for labor. I tried to go without any pain medicine. After eighteen hours of painful contractions though, one is likely to change their mind. So I had a pain medicine inserted through the IV. they gave me the smallest ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream that you and I were together. We laughed and thought of the future and remembered the past. you told stories that made no sense, but I pretend like they did. My jokes were horrible, but you laughed anyway. after while we went for a walk and as the day turned into dusk our talk continued. Soon the dusk became night during ( Read more... )

is a delicious combination. I know, because I just had it ( Read more... )

I just realized that not every ones mind works like mine does. I also learned that I REALLY have to stop assuming that people understand what I mean when I don't come right out and say things. Well now things are clear to the both of us. As to why is clear to me, but I don't know if it is to the other. He didn't ask why. It doesn't surprise me but ( Read more... )

Imagine that you work in a jewelry store. You see all the jewelry that comes in and goes out. One day you see the most gorgeous bracelet that you've ever seen. You put it in the window adoring it. You'd buy it if you could but it's way out of your price range. It sits in the window for months on months and every time you see it you yearn for it ( Read more... )

I just realized that I haven't been on here for a long time. Unfortunately I don't have a lot to share. Except for one thing.....Love is hell, but for all the right reasons.

Top 10 things that make you happy right now, and tag 5 people to do the same ( Read more... )

I got a new job.

What do you do when you just can't get your point across ( Read more... )