So, not very much has been going on, I'm freaking out right now though, because I have a Math test tomorrow, and I have no idea what is going to be on there. Also I have a speech to give tomorrow on a civic issue. The problem with that is that I don't pay any attention to what is going on in the world to know what I'm going to do my speech on. I ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a while. I"ve been super super busy. I don't think I've talked to Jason at all this week...It's sad really. Tomorrow I turn 19. I saw the date today and was like WHOA TOMORROW IS MY BIRTHDAY, that kind of tripped me out. I've been coming out of my shell a lot more lately. I've haven't been afraid to be myself, which is a huge relief ( Read more... )

I went to bed at about 2:30 last night. I slept well, but I didn't wake up until 1:00 this afternoon. I was supposed to go to bible study with my mom. I called her as soon as I woke up to explain, but I could tall that she was hurt. It sucks because I wanted to go to...It's been two or three weeks since I've been anywhere near a church or bible ( Read more... )

Well I've calmed down now. A beer and talking to a couple funny friends helped that to happen. I'm still upset, although I'm not really sure if it's at him or at myself. I think it's more at me than anything. I'm mad that I let myself get like this. So wound up, I don't like being like that. I made plans with like four people tonight and they all ( Read more... )

Right now I have absolutely no word to explain the way that I feel. I am so infuriated, and I know that there really is no reason to be but the more I think about the reason that I am the more upset I get. It's like this angry/thought circle. Why do I do the things I do. He called and asked if I wanted to hang out tonight, and even though I am ( Read more... )

it sucks to want something really really bad but know that you can't have it.

it sucks to not be wanted in return.

it sucks to wait for something that you know will never come.

and it suck that i have a dozen people that will talk to me about it, but that i can't talk to any of them...not yet.

I"ve basically been doing nothing but work lately. It's sad really this week I've worked about 37 hours. I like my new job but at the same time it sucks drastically. I'm finally warming up to people there. The managers all love me, odd, or at least I find it odd. I don't even really pay attention to them, even though I should. I think it's because ( Read more... )

So I just dropped my truck off to be fixed. The transmission leaks so bad that I have to put a quart of fluid in every time I go somewhere. I took it to F&W but wayne wasn't there. The guy who I talked to looked as though he had no idea what I was talking to. I mentioned my mom (Wayne always talks to her about the truck) and he looked at me like " ( Read more... )

I want to make you happy but I've fallen, I'm sorry ( Read more... )

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