so there's been a change of names. email me or IM me if you want to know what it is. lata!

i wish i could sing out at the top of my lungs ( Read more... )

when do you stop lying to yourself ( Read more... )

i've been in this weird mood for a day now. it's confusing as hell. i want to say it's indifferent but iuno. i just feel blah. like, i want to get out and do something, but i also want to sleep. i still haven't gotten my license, and i realized that i only have 96 dollars in my banks account. so i need to get my license quick and start making some ( Read more... )

i'm thinking about changing my journal name or something cuz, iuno i need a change but i don't know what to change it to. haha i was reading two peoples journals that i haven't talked to in forever, for whatever reason, i don't even remember now, i just know, that at the time we were having a lot of issues with each other and then all decided, well ( Read more... )

***He wanted to take me to a secluded area in the bushes, and I refused. He pointed his gun and told me that he was going to shoot me. He made me follow him along a shady road and told me to take off my clothes. I refused again. He told me to lie down, and I did. On the ground I heard someone passing by; I turned my head and saw an old man. I ( Read more... )

i am lusting instead of loving. i need to remember there is a difference. lust fades love doesn't. yes i'm lusting after a few people right now, but i'm afraid to actually interact with them because i might make lust love and it's not that way at all, and it wouldn't be safe to do that. there's nothing wrong with lust as long as you know exactly ( Read more... )

i can understand why they would be upset. i didn't listen to them at all while drunk. i do have a drinking problem and just possibly they aren't concerned for my safety. i won't pose a but to this, not yet anyway. i will actually try and just view it from their stand point. maybe they figure they've been through enough of my drinking brigades and ( Read more... )

( for _mattykins )

i don't like how when there's something you don't want, it comes around. and what you what doesn't. i don't want random hook-ups and they are sooooo, and i mean sooo hard to turn down. but i've been doing it. ahhh. i think i might go mad. hehe.