#54 ( Read more... )

I think I was somewhere around the 40's. Nope I checked ( Read more... )

I think I was somewhere around the 40's. Nope I checked ( Read more... )

My journal is filled with unanswered questions and negativity. I need to find more answers.

Slowly. Going. Stir. Crazy.

Its so nice out but I dont know what to do and I dont really have anyone to do anything with

Boo.

I'm kinda glad I've been responsible lately. Most people don't realize that I refused to drink for years because I didn't want to lose control. Finally, I gave in and because drinking made me feel something I stuck with it. It was always part of the search for that continual balance. It's funny that I've gotten to a point where I can reflect on ( Read more... )

i curse the powers that be. there is no aspirin in my house!!

and of course, the one day i'm NOT up at 4am for work we have an earthquake!

Its 8 on a Friday and I'm bored out of my skull. I've been hanging out all day doing random little things and now I'm out of things to do. I mean there's always -something- to do but none of it seems appealing. No one is really around, I wanted to go on a bike ride (which required borrowing Marx old bike) but he didnt take to that cuz he wanted to ( Read more... )

first real buzz in almost 3 weeks. stopped myself last time, for good reason. slowed it down today for good reason, the walk home was a necessary action. still not over the unresolved issues. missing someone terribly. uncertainty, though natural and inevitable, is a weakness of mine. part of the non drinking was out of guilt thats built on prior ( Read more... )

If work continues to come my way for the next few weeks, I want to put alllll the extra money onto my credit card. After I pay off my card I will save for moving out by end of summer. If work gets crazy over summer, and it will if I start getting up to speed on audio stuff, then I will be able to potentially figure out a move sooner ( Read more... )