im so tired... i have been workin every day , and every night the past week...cept for tuesday, which is when i went to KINGS DOMINION!!!! i dont care how old i am, i will never get tired of going to theme parks and riding those rides! rollercosters are great, but i love pretty much every ride as long as its fast, and i go all around, upside down, ( Read more... )

ok so new stuff ( Read more... )

i hate parents....

they fucked up the only good thing i had in my life, my only reason to smile...

what the hell am i going to do......

the other night i was ready to let go of everything...i had a bottle of vodka and a bottle of my perscription meds. i was ready to fuckin end my pathetic life. i was writing a letter to the only person that ive ever loved and probably the only one that loves me back when he called. he knew something was wrong when i answered. the next hour and a ( Read more... )

ive been feeling so depressed lately.. this whole thing with dan is killing me. some of my friends want me to press charges, but i think that would jus put more stress on me that i REALLY dont need right now ( Read more... )

im so tired of everything..physically and mentally tired.. i dont kno how much longer i can do it. every night i go to bed hoping maybe i wont wake up. and everyday i do wake up i feel.. disappointed almost ( Read more... )

the other night i was feeling so depressed.. i was crying for hours. i wanted to cut so bad! i had the blade out and everything but i tried so hard not to. i was just running it along my arm, not pushing down or anything. i got some scratches from that...the next day i saw them and thot fuck! i was freaked the whole day that someone would notice it ( Read more... )

so i went one week and almost a whole day without cutting.. too bad i had to go and fuckin ruin it last nite. but i guess thats me, always fuckin up everything thats good or can be good in my life....

hopefully you all have more strength than me <3 lexi

well, for this whole past week i have not been hungry at all. the only thing ive eatin all week is an energy bar and a peice of fruit, which was before my track practices ( Read more... )

im sooo happy today ( Read more... )