SO I have not updated in a while ( Read more... )

ANY Dependence on a chemical for sheer survival, the saddest thing to admit and i cant fake it any longer...

nothing is right here

in a better mood.. looking forward again... im really proud of my self right now... that makes me happy, it doesn’t happen often

I might just be one of the most moody ppl in the world… remember that next time I yell or get mad, the next day I will feel like shit about it….

[[ True or False ( Read more... )

Frustration outward
Anxiety inside my own skin
Incurable idle feeling
Loneness

i FAILed you too?

So nothing has changed… and I really don’t think it will… I love to be around ppl but I seem to feel the most alone when I am.. im the only person in the world who goes to an awesome club and goes in to a downward spiral because I cant handle being so alone. I really cant I can try and I can fake it but I hate the feeling. A room full of ppl and ( Read more... )

last entry for a sad soul ( Read more... )

So this is the new year ( Read more... )

IN 2005 I ( Read more... )

Everything seems so futile all the sudden, like there is not good reason in the world to do all most anything. It’s a strange feeling when your whole life has been based around this principle that ppl matter, and u finally come to the terms with how ridiculous life is ( Read more... )