I cannot read back on any of my past entries because they all make me realize how bad mine and matthews relationshipw as. Whenever I wrot eit was about how we were in a fight. How i wish Ic ould start over. Either fix things with him, or just decide to not have the best partso f my lfie happen at all. I am complteely over this entire thing...I just ( Read more... )

So I am definitely upset...just alittle...no I lied...ALOT about the ending of this day. Not only were my hopes of going to dairy queen ruined, but I have another final. The thing is Kuznar told us we were going to Dairy Queen today and then it turned out that she never asked if we could. We had all prepared to go have icecream today, but instead ( Read more... )

I have failed to update in quite some time. WHy? because i have simply not had the time. i come home everyday, have about an hour to do homework, eat, or sleep (whatever it is that i need that day) before I have to either go to work, guard, or the past few weeks, school related things. I am now making an attempt simply because my mailbox has been ( Read more... )

I realized that I talk alot of shit in here..some of it really personal and then some of it definitely ment for the public eye. But it doesn't matter cause I realized I don't want other people to see any of the shit I talk if I don't give them permission So I have just spent the last 20 minutes making the past 60 entries friends only. Really the ( Read more... )

Everyone has been in a bad mood lately, or has had something to bitch about, or is have problems with their friends and what not. THe thought has crossed my mind that all of this pessimism that i have been reading/writting/ and hearing about has gotten to me to. Thats stupid thought I can't blame other people for why I am so bitchy the last 2 days ( Read more... )

So the past few days have just kinda been a blur...Things have been bad and then good...I've had good laughs and a few crys for god knows what reason. My mind has wandered off into nothingness a few times and then strolled back into it's own time. There are a few things that I wonder about the past couple days. How hs is going to end or even this ( Read more... )

Sorry theres no cut...I don't feel like finding it ( Read more... )

So thank you for everyone that read my entry last night and left comments. I didn't get them until just now(sure whenevrything is better) but they still all touched me. I just wish I guess there were some things in my life that I was able to change, make different, or go back and erase ( Read more... )

Tonight I was disrespected, looked down upon, yelled and lectured at to no end, and tortured with the wheel in my stomach turning my emotions ( Read more... )