From here on..I will remember that I am the only one who can make myself happy. I was so broken at one time, that it's been taking me a very long time to repair myself. It's one thing to fall in love, but another to make it last. Everything I say to anyone, I mean. My hands are over my heart, and I can feel it. This is my life, I'm done worrying, I ( Read more... )

I'm convinced that the good things in our lives are never within reach. You have to work your fucking ass off to make it happen and don't get me wrong, it makes me feel proud to achieve, but when it's something like this, it isn't as easy. I found you, something i need, but we were placed on the earth in what seems like opposite ends of the ( Read more... )

Time of day isn't important and neither is justification, but she always seems to find a way into someone's heart and she knows how to navigate. I want to meet that girl that every musician sings about. Doesn't she seem fantastic? Or maybe she is so overwhelming and frusterating, that they feel the need to write a song about her perfect ( Read more... )

I'm sick of listening to songs of pitiful, bitter desperation because it doesn't make me feel any better. Mine is just sweet and innocent. I can't take away the feeling of jealously towards just about everyone because i can't come home to the one person that I want to. I'm usually ok about it all, but it's hard feeling light years away sometimes. I ( Read more... )

It was one of those days that was like being on a roller coaster. It's not a bad thing though. Days like these make me remember that i am alive and i am human and i will go through changes in my life. All in all, i have it pretty good. Yeah, most of the misery i portray is just an absence of feeling, but i am really not unhappy. My theory for this ( Read more... )

Today was the last day of real school and i'm so relieved, now just 3 days of finals and my 11th year will be over. I'm so excited for summer to start, i can hardly breathe. Hawaii with the my lovebug<3 and then disneyland, then my grandmas 90th birthday, then courtney is coming to town. It's just ahhhh so good. I've been missing you so much, i'm ( Read more... )

Everyday feels similar in thought. The way i feel when it started, the roller coaster of feelings throughout and then the still, pure silence in the night. Sleeping feels like nothing i know or waking without to a brand new world, as if my slate was wiped clean. Sometimes, i don't know where things start and end, both points in time are identical. ( Read more... )

I need to recognize when my emotions are just a factor of my womanly nature, thats why i have been upset lately. I knew it was all my fault all along, i feel better and now i can't stop thinking about 3 weeks from now. It's not long at all and i get to see you for two weeks. I need this, i need you. i can't wait!

I am so sick and tired of feeling upset. When i feel dark, it overcomes me so strongly. I don't know why you want to talk to me? I feel like I am such a downer. My bones are shaking under my own skin, its making me feel like i want to throw up. I hate myself for being like this. I just need to hear your voice, I'm serious......It's make me feel ( Read more... )

I get embarrassed about the way i feel sometimes...I don't know if this sounds silly, but i try really hard to keep smiling for you because i feel like if i let out a side of me that is upset at all, you'll be less likely to talk to me about it or something, and i end up feeling worse. Nobody wants to be around a downer, but i just cant help it ( Read more... )