ok so its been forever sence i updated last. uhm... i got grounded for 3 montsh today i got ungrounded FINALLY!!!!!!!! sheesh. but it was worth it =P brooke got me an ipod nano color (blue). her mom got me a necklace. i got an ipod pillown i amde broke a pillow. meghan got me popcorn and some cd's. jake got me sim city delux 4. i got a black eye ( Read more... )

ugh today was a bad day. i read all of my pomes,shared a few. but they all made me depressed. i got a lot of compliments on them which made me feel good. i dont know whats wrong with me. i feel fat my dad wont drive me to work out i have a head ache my back hurts i already took 6 advil. i have a therapy session tommrow right after school which i am ( Read more... )

1.Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with ( Read more... )

1.DON'T TAKE IT IF YOU'RE GOING TO LIE ( Read more... )

i am deleting my lj so if u even pay attention to what i write..n i just stopped.. well i didnt im deleting it. there is not point in me having anything online anymore ANYTHING. besides its pointless if ur not allowed to write poetry n your feelings so. maysewell delete this.

ok so i gave into my temptations sadly. and now it is a must. i did it once friday, sunday,monday, and today. its pissing me off i cant controll it. i cant talk to brooke b/c i lost my trust with her. i cant talk to anyone b/c all they say is dont its not good well what the fuck help me stop give me a good damn reason besides i love you. im ( Read more... )

alright so there is this kid that sits like right behind me or next to me and freaks me out every day!! i cant move seats.. i got in trouble so i have to sit in that seat. he gets on and there are all these open seats. i told he bus driver to make him move. and she said she'll keep an eye out on him that did nothig but make her laugh b/c where ever ( Read more... )

ok.. so its been a while sence i updated.... i am in the middle of a depression and its harder than fuck to get out of it. nobody is helping me through this either. i told my aunt some things that only me and one other person knew about.. which is a problem to me b/c now i have to worrie about her telling someone ( Read more... )

okay.. my 16th birthday party was lastnight. only 3 of my friends showed up, it was a bummer but it was fun. my mom and dad gave me a ring that my mom got on her sweet 16. it's a gold butterfly w/ an opal stone, i looked at it n almost cried ( Read more... )

okay.. im dedicating this entry to lauren margaret herman. okay...so i wanted to thank her.. b/c she helped me more than anyone knows... and if i didnt show her the papers i wrote.. i would of.. so i really cant thank her enuff. but i still get urges... and it's extreamly hard to fight back. n we have to hang out soon. we can have a big talk if you ( Read more... )