it was goddamn perfect just days ago. and now im sitting here, crying and wondering what the hell had happened. all because she wants something to chenge means that everything thats has happened is ending right in front of us and we cant change any of it. i feel like im nothing. i feel like you could care less n i feel thats how it has always been ( Read more... )

so lastnight was soooo fun. really.... i went to panera with nicole. i have a secret crush and he knows but he doesnt even know my name. haha i had a lotta fun. then we invited ourselves to jason's.... then we met up with chris n pat. me n chris had a nice looooong talk in the car. then i went home. and thats how it started. my mom said i reaked ( Read more... )

a young guy once told me, "youre good at pushing people away from you. its just what you do best". i think maybe he was right ( Read more... )

so much has happened lately... i did a 200 pt project that was due today lastnight. started at 9 and ended at about 2 in the morning. im sicker than sick. its gross. i sound gross. i lost my key sometime this weekend... no idea where is at ( Read more... )

i got the job at party city! i started yesterday... wow lastnight was sooooo fun after work. too bad it ended well... not feelin too great. i cant swallow anything. i feel like my whole throat is closing up and its scary. and when im just sitting here tryign to swallow, and i cant i panic and then i can feel it get smaller. but im able to drink ( Read more... )

1 tree hill was amazing. i had some thinking time. i hate when i have thinking time, cuz i think i over think. ive drifted from a lotta people recently, really far from a certain person. i think tis probably better off anyway. sometime people just drift, relationships fade away and u just let go. theres nothing else to do. its just weird when u ( Read more... )

sorry im not as pretty as her. sorry im not as smart as her. sorry i dont have the cutest things to say like her. sorry im not good enough for you like her. sorry you dont love me like you love her. sorry im just not her ( Read more... )

the worst feeling in the entire world is relizing the one you love is still in love with someone else ( Read more... )

u grow up, grow apart and learn to just let go. u pushed me away but expect me to always be waiting here when u decide to come back and i cant do that. its not worth it. ur not worth it anymore ( Read more... )

so lastnight was a bad night. went to jasons, and supposedly got caught with some shyt by my parents. it was gay, my mom yelled at me, my dad laughed at/with me and now its all fine ( Read more... )