i am not happy. i am depressed. i am angry. i am hurt. i am sad. i hate the way i feel. i feel used. by you, by them. i feel upset. at him, at myself, at what i have done. i dread tomorrow. i dread knowing that i have to wakeup and go to school and listen to same old shit from the same old people. this is not a dream. its far from a nightmare. this ( Read more... )

well i dont remember much that happened anytime b4 sat night. actually... i dont even member sat night anymore. lastnight i slept at nic's. we were up reeeally late like 4 in the morning with people. but b4 that we stopped by the fest for like an hour maybe? and we got hit on by a 7th grader, 15 yr old with his mom driving the car he was in, and ( Read more... )

so today.. i came home at 8:30 in da morning and then woke up at 5, took a shower and then left. then i got dropped at nicoles. i met this kid vince. and then we went to sept fest to go find someone. 2 cute guys asked for a ride. they were reeeeally cute too. then we picked up a couple people, went to tacobell then dropped em somewhere, went to ( Read more... )

you dont make me happy anymore. and thats completely okay with me now. i like a boy. its one of those 1st grade type of crushes where u just stare and get all tonguetied when he talks to you. iss cute, real cute. ahh its amazing though. really... hes amazing. so i kinda miss what never happened, if that made sence? oh well. our friday night plans ( Read more... )

i found the the coat im making! its gonna be expensive... n im thinking about redesigning the collar but maybe not. havent really decided yet. i have to sell candy and in math i got rob to buy some n he got a few other guys to buy it for me. he told me its all about supporting me n hes all for it. wow. today i wanted to faint. my days are AMAZING ( Read more... )

me n carrie had an awesome conversation lastnight and today well.. we were cool haha wow it was a funni moment today. i got shit from a certain someone for not going to watch him start at the football game friday night. we talked it up (wtf is talk it up?) and its cool cuz hes amazing... shit hasnt changed with me n that girl but i dont care its so ( Read more... )

friday night was sooooooo fun! me n nicole picked up bj kevin n this other kid and we went to a park. we were there for a while and then we decided to go to nicoles and we were thre for a looong time and then at like 3.30 we had to take bj home and it was raining and i passes out... and then i slept over there we woke up at 2.30 today and layed ( Read more... )

umm i wanted to thank u first of all for telling me im a horrible friend. and second for telling me im screwing up all i really have going because you know everyhting thats going on rihtg now ( Read more... )

first day as a junior.. how.. amusing. i <3 my math class. well i <3 the senior guys in my math class i guess i should say. hmm gym is better than i thought. got it with dp, svon, stef, jean, n some other chicas. off campus is nice. lol me n nicole went to tacobell n we saw sam there. im overall happy with all my classes except pyschology. there ( Read more... )

lastnight i slept at nicoles. again. we went to kevins later on then back to her house with all them. umm it rained today and me n nicole opened her sunroof when it stopped raining but when she stopped really quik, all the standing water came shooting into her car all over us. it was funni. its kristins bday today! we visited her for a few. we also ( Read more... )