you seem to be in a slue ( Read more... )

and i'm am not the sun ( Read more... )

so my life reamins so ( Read more... )

so much have i missed in these last few days.
i need a man to ease me out of this phase
i hope i fall soon
all this to face my doom.
my disaster waiting to happen

there are flies on top of my plate
and still i cannot find a date
i hope i hurt soon
alone in side this great big room
a spectator on the sidelines laughing.

only i hear no clapping.

im un employed im failing school, i want to take my life before i lose it for good. only i know for sure this is not the case. i hate school with a passion but theres a spark that makes me go! will, maybe i will. ha ha that was a trick for those who could pick, it up!

so i suppose its been about , and almost three months for me with my frind. i do like the time we get together. he cares. hes not afraid to speak to me. yet. im still afraid to tell him what i want to tell him ( Read more... )

there is no falling snow there is no sleighbells this year. where did they all go will we be able to come back next year. there is no falling snow there is no sleighbells this year. where did they all go will we be able to come back next year. i think im falling falling in love with you. and im wasting my life in the cold dark room wishing for a ( Read more... )

mystery
why do i get so tired, why do i drain my thoughts into a large glass, of hurt
i have a moment of bliss, then the alarm goes off. woah.i met an environmentalist. hes cute and 19. who knew a gunrange party would be so nice to me>? hes weird as i.
its cool. dont really know him that well but im interested.perfection. hahaa

wow, i tell you the more and more books i read on china, and vietnam, rwanda. i get a feeling of how it would be to go there, and to smell the same smells, and feel the same emotions, or whatever ( Read more... )

for i shall not go on anymore,

why did this have to be so , difficult?
i stare out my bedroom window, waiting for your ghost who never comes.
what have i become?
someblind, foolish, hypocritical , girl.
with nowhere to go .. but down.
still i stare in my bedroom mirror., for the beauty, that isn't there.