So I'm sick of this life. I hate my parents. How fucking retarded can you be? I cost them $0 now. I have all my own insurances, I don't eat their food, they pay nothing for me. So why the fuck are they even bothering with me? Just fucking leave me alone. I came home to half my shit in the garbage can because they don't see a need for it. Well guess ( Read more... )

I heard how things are for you now. I'm happy for you, but moreso than that, I wish you weren't like all the rest, and were just capable of telling me the truth. Some things never change. You were one of them.

When times are bad, the only thing we can do is hope for a savior, hope for something to come along to erase the tribulations that we currently face. But even when the times are good, we simultaneously are enjoying what we have, but also dreading the day we lose it. Why is it that nothing gold can stay? What can we do to solidify happiness? When ( Read more... )

Awww, my journal's been so neglected. Well this is all it gets for now. For now, it's time to poop and shower and go have cake with the birthday sluts. Kisses everyone.

So I definitely missed ANOTHER oppurtunity to talk to the beautiful girl. I'm such a retard. I waited 5 minutes too long and then a couple showed up that went and sat with her. I didn't want her to feel uncomfortable so I didn't talk to her while her friends were there. I even said to Connie, "fuck, she's going to leave with ehr friends and then I' ( Read more... )

I'm not a bad person, do I need to prove it to anyone? No, but the world will see.

I've realied that my problems are minute compared to the ones I cause other people. I let you all down again. I'm sorry. There honestly is nothing I can do except for not repeat this mistake again. That does nothing for the people I've already effected. I haven't eaten all day. Cigarettes seem to be the food of choice. I don't want to slip into ( Read more... )

I'm lost again. I guess I was never found, just had a false sense of security. While it lasted it was nice. That feeling will never come from where it came from ever again. I don't know if I'm at fault for that at not. How hard is this honestly? Why is it so easy for everyone else and so difficult for me? Maybe I should just be like everyone else ( Read more... )

I told you I'd never let you go as a friend, I hope you see that now. I'm not like them. I love my buddies, but sometimes a lady is needed too. I mean of course all the time would be nice, but sometimes I think about it more times than others. Seeing couples sucks. I'm having sketchy feelings on women and the band. Not good things to not be aware ( Read more... )

So an interesting past day and a half. Last night when I had originally planned to come home from work, clean, and then go to sleep, I ended up hanging out with the fellas and then when I got in at 10:30 I planned on going to bed when Jeanette called. I was surprised to say the least, haven't seen/talked to her in forever. Turns out she's at the ( Read more... )