Somehow I always thought that Ruben was different....like he would never intentionally hurt me...well I dunno if  you think that telling someone you don't love them anymore is unintentional....but I do....I have this nagging feeling that I'm doing the wrong thing by not talking to him but really I wish that if he wanted to call---he would. If he ( Read more... )

I really feel like I lost my life friday night. I cried for so long in Danielle's lap and she just let me....just let me cry. I said I love you to Ruben for the very last time on Friday and I felt so numb....And I kept saying I hated him for letting me feel like this....I said it over and over until I couldn't say it anymore. But as much as I want ( Read more... )

Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely ( Read more... )

I'm so lost without you.....

SOOO tomorrow I have to go through yet another "funeral" or whatever you wanna call it. Yeah I dunno how I feel though cause I haven't cried at all yet about it. I feel sorta heartless....but I have a feeling when they start to talk about her it will hit me. In due time....Ruben's coming....yeah...He's so gorgeous it's unreal...GAH I am SOOOoooo ( Read more... )

OK!!!!!  I will tell you what I'm holy crapping about. lol Just kidding I made it up but for real someone commented and I dunno who it was....GAVE ME HOPE lololol.....seriously I don't know who it is but I want to know...BAD cause I wanna know how this person knows these things....SO tell me whoever you are....cause I don't wanna get all smoochy ( Read more... )

HOLY CRAP!!!!

lol you really wanna know what I'm holy crapping about

TOO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All I want in the world right now ( Read more... )

SO today I had another hehe day... whattaya know? So yeah I thought about maybe trying to get over Ruben today....what a thought huh? Yeah i dunno but if he doesn't want to even maybe try to start things new then I'm not gonna sit around waiting for him to take me back...I dunno cause I was maybe thinking about asking him out on a date when i got ( Read more... )

Don't you love it when people argue on your lj??? That's like all the comments I get anymore but I seriously apologize if anyone's feelings got hurt and I still don't know who the mystery commenter is.I just go about my little business and complain about my little dramas and people gotta get all "LEAVE LAUREN ALONE" SHEESH I'm a big girl...Anyways ( Read more... )