i am. i love that place. .. NOT the driver. NOT the ( Read more... )

anxious. creative. drained. intrigued. sleepy. productive. stressed. restless. inspired. busy. nostalgic. envious. hopeful. cold. un-creative. un-inspired. non-productive. discouraged. bored. worried. contradiction. random. confused.

what?

i need... fuck, i dont know. vacation. i need a vacation. fuck.

i had something to say...
something to write...
i forgot.
shit.
fuck, i dont care man.

it cant be done right. right? left.. turn.. go upside down.. right.. diagonal.. left... right... back.. forth.. there it is!! no no no. worng again. wrong at always. all ways. somber. mad at. envy. depressionnnn. guilt. success? loneliness. admiration. confusedddddddd. different for different. all forgotton. no no.. know the one. what the shit.

i dont feel well. do you appreciate being ignored ( Read more... )

movie. sleep. pac-man.

i dont understand

i miss a few people right now. what do you do when you miss.. tell them so? no words for feelings. things are different now.. really different. things are the same as always. things were different but going back to be the same again. i dont understand. no surprise there. i dont like it. very irratated lately. dont expect it... not going to happen. ( Read more... )

no more blonde.. kind of sad. what i wanted. looks better?
headache.. alwayss.
photo tomorrow.. i must motivate myself.
nostalgia.. confusion.. mixed mixed mixed
ill do something fun tomorrow.

no livejounal for months.. no paper journal for days ( Read more... )