I just woke up about an hour ago. Took a shower and had my mom make me some french toast. I only ate about 1 and a half pieces and a small glass of milk. I feel like shit! I am so fucking tired and I cant take it. All I keep thinking about is Brad. Even when I was asleep I dreamt of him. This pisses me off! Lol. I had wrote this before, but some ( Read more... )

Right now I am watching Six Feet Under, the last season! I am going to try and not get upset. Brad is going to shit when he sees all that has happened! Lol. I wish he was here watching it with me. Its so hard to not talk to him. Its takes everything. Its alittle easy though cause he dont want to talk to me, so its not like he calls or IMs me. Kind ( Read more... )

Who do you go to when the person you love is gone? Tell me! Who do I ask to hold me as I cry? As I die? Who will be there when I need someone so desperately? Tell me! I certainly do not know. Is it that I am cursed? Thats my heart has to be bashed, beaten,torn? I guess I have to let you go. I have no chioce, no chance. The love you once had for me ( Read more... )

This is going to be a very short entry. All this drama happened and my father canceled my DSL. I am getting it back though in a couple of days and even getting wireless! BTW Dial-up fucking sucks ( Read more... )

Phew today has been one day. Me and my father got into a fight about my DSL. Sooooo stupid! Of course it ended up being the whole family getting involved. Well here is how it started: Well I got DSL, and my brother and I made a deal that if he'd use it he'd have to pay me $7 a month plus the $50 for the portal that I did not need to spend. Well he ( Read more... )

Hasnt been that long since my last entry, over a week. I have been real busy with school, work, and video games :-)

Brad is back now, of course! I was sooo happy! He had fun, but thought it was going to better. He got dark...Lol. Not too dark, but you could tell the difference. We really didnt talk about his trip much. He just told me about all ( Read more... )

Brad has been gone for 3 days, and I miss him so much. I just feel so depressed. I'm not used to dating someone and having them far enouph away that we barely talk not see each other. I am a clingy person and its really hard for me.

Last night was sooo fucking bad. I mean I had fun, but something happen that just pissed me off and ruined my day. I ( Read more... )

Ahhhhhhh its Friday!!! Finally! The weekends go by soooo much faster. Still got to wait till Tuesday night for Brad to come home. Surprisengly he called me today. He didnt even seem pissed, which is kind of odd. I thought alot today about him and I. I am about to make one of the biggest decisions in my life, and the thing I am afraid of....... is ( Read more... )

Damn today fucking sucks! Everything just seems to come all at once, but I really have no room to complain, worse things could happen. I am going to complain though, helps me.  First of all I have bad sinuses, my throat hurts, my ears have some fluid in them or something cause they hurt, my right underarm is still numb, and God only knows what else ( Read more... )

Right now I am at home sick, because of allergies. It really sucks that I am allergic to pollen, ITS EVERYWHERE!!!!!

I had fun this weekend. I got to spend it all with Brad, which we havent spent the whole weekend together for awhile. Friday he got his hair cut, and then came over. We watch movies and T.V. One thing we watched was The Mists of ( Read more... )