Well I am back. After such a long break. Yes I decided to keep this journal name......didnt feel like restarting it all. I just got my computer back yesterday after being in Miami Florida getting fixed. Damn thing started smoking and then wouldnt charge. Lol. It fucking pissed me  off! Ah Well over it!  I've been doing alot, well kind of....... ( Read more... )

Maybe I should just make awhole new journal name!? And not tell anyone? Lol. Hmmmmmm. Who knows, still pondering the idea......... still pondering ( Read more... )

Lol. Last entry seemed to fail! I havent wrote here for more than a month. My pc broke and is at Best buy getting fixed, so that kind of hinders it. I've also been busy with video games, catching up before school starts up again. Well when I get my computer back, Hoping for Friday! I am going to start back up again with my journal. Hopefully also ( Read more... )

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E-mail me at LucidDreamerEG@aol.com or

LucidDreamer8717@sbcglobal.net

I think from now on my journals are going to much longer and hopefully dont have as much bitching and ( Read more... )

Well it has been an interesting  couple of weeks. I dont remember the last time I wrote in here, but I know it hasnt been too long. Well I finally got my wish. My dream. Brad came back to me. I kept my word on how I changed and that I wasnt going to hurt him and that I was going to show him how much I truly do love him. I had somethings to still ( Read more... )

Well it has been 3 odd days. Talked to Brad alot a couple of days ago, but then we just stopped talking for 3 days now. He hasnt even been home from what his parents are saying. O well, nothing I can do. It just hurts that he wouldnt call me and let me know kind of whats going on. He said he'd call me when he got back 3 days ago. I know he's with ( Read more... )

Yeah. I just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I feel like shit, my damn sinuses are bothering me. :-( My parents are gone, my mom is taking my dad to the airport. :-) Gone for 2 weeks, comes back for 2 weeks and is gone again for 2 weeks. I got alot to do today and its already 2:19! I gots to get ready. I am so damn excited though! I only have have 2 ( Read more... )

Uhhhh Today was alittle better. I dont know I just dont feel like talking about Brad anymore. It depresses me and I am trying to get over him and wipe him out of my life completely. I slept in until 1...Lol. I think I went to bed around 1 AM...so about 12 hours of sleep which is cool. I didnt do too much today, trying to take things slow and ( Read more... )

Cant beleive this could be the end......... Dont Speak! Ahhhh I love all my new music and I want more! Well Today has been hell, but I have realized alot. Well Brad did find somone else and it hurts alot! Only if you knew....lol. Which alot of us do. I fucked up in the relationship and even though I know I can change and that I realized my faults, ( Read more... )

I am just sitting in my hot room listening to my music. Doing alot of thinking. Lots! My life is changing to quick. My mind is just so fucked up. Still processing everything. For some reason I dont realize things until its too late and it fucking sucks. Brad was everything I wanted. He is so great and he was mine. He wanted no one else and I just ( Read more... )