well work was good today... again i didnt really do much but sit and stand in one place and play with the yoyo... but i was at the entrance...... anyway all i did is squirt people with the squirt guns and have occasional squirt gun fights with kids and my co-workers.. it was a fun day over all... even tho that lame ass caricature guy was there he ( Read more... )

today was a good day... work was easy... i stayed at the tent all day and well learned how to play with a yoyo and try to learn tricks with it all day... no managers no annoying co-workers... it went by pretty fast... and i'm glad... then after work i went to josh's grandma's house and we hung out there for a while... he's working toninght... and ( Read more... )

ok well, i've just found out that i get charged for every long distance call i make which might mean that i need to change my plan once more because i cant afford to be spending more money than i have... sooo i'll be looking into that soon... soon soon. i knew i hated cell phones... i just knew i did... its a great way to stay in touch with all ( Read more... )

eeh well i've come to the conclusion again that love sucks.. so i'll just avoid repeating all i've said before and go to my corner and think and try to make things better... when i do and things do change i'll up date... besides i dont feel comfortable doing this right now... its not the right place or time... :(

funny how the world goes round and everything bad just comes back to you and slaps you in the face... the after it turns again you realize that its all stupid unitl it turns again and it happens again... its all been done over and over yet we dont seem to learn from our past mistakes... well... life throws rocks at you and all you can do it take ( Read more... )

the agony of being around you will kill me ( Read more... )

dredgonred: Patty this is one of the days i wish you were here with me so that i could just pour on to you all that i'm feeling... i'm feeling pretty rotten right now.. i just had a talk with josh over the whole me him and this other girl thing and well lets just say i couldnt help my self...from crying and exposing my self to him completely he ( Read more... )

ok so i havent improved my situation at all... but i am slowly making process. I had a melt down this sat night... i felt like shit because i knew i was starting to fall for him again... and i know that i cant afford to do that because at any given time i know that he will soon tell me that we cant do :what we do: anymore... which i know is ( Read more... )

At least i know i'm not emotionally dead... I guess I do give a damn if Josh keeps talking to this other girl (Alice) (Yes, now i even know her name) (first sign that demonstrates that i care more than i think or thought i did)He just told me that he talked to her because he hated being in the dark all the time... meaning they talk but she hasnt ( Read more... )

Ha ha ha… I’m a huge fraud. Well things I said I wouldn’t do I’ve been doing. I can just see my self falling for Joshua once more. Which I hope it doesn’t happen. At least if he’s not on board with me. So far things have been shifting from a friends only thing to fuck buddies. Which doesn’t really please me much to know that I’m being used as a ( Read more... )