I'm in my room naked watching TV and browsing the web. I know I have way to much time on my hands because I just emailed covergirl to complain about their stupid liquid eyeliner and how it fades quickly, and just because you name something ONIX it doesn’t mean its black... stupid thing was bluish and it doesn’t work too well... there's just ( Read more... )

I am going thru full utter depression… I don’t think I’ve ever felt this bad. I’ve been having constant break downs since I lost my job. I am in way too much pressure and there have been way too many surprises on the turn of the corner. Josh has been great putting up with my depressive break downs and well I’ve faced him and I’ve told him the ( Read more... )

I'm in school looking thru my photobucket... and i see the pictures of old faces whom i'm very familar with yet i have not talked to in a long time... i feel like such a shit because i have not called them... i really miss the guys... i wish i could be in texas just hanging out everyweekend at michelles or the garage or anywhere.... i cant wait ( Read more... )

well it seems that ever since josh and i got together a while back i've decided not to bother with this thing... altho it wouldnt hurt if i did ... at least that way i can come in here write and vent about all the bull that is happening and all the shit that i'm going thru when i dont want to talk to josh about it ( Read more... )

its been well over a month and things have changed for the best but a rash of bad luck has come back... wellthe good thing is that josh and i are a couple now... some how he realized that he was wrong and that he had what he wanted right in front of him... just like i expected him to do... it just took some patience and endurance.... lots... and ( Read more... )

well things so far are going great i've been working most of the time and well hanging out with josh... things between him and i are good also... but i still have that little thought in my mind telling me that its all phase... anyway i'll ride it thru i'm sure... josh just got a new job with sprint pcs... yeah cellphones... it seems he's doing well ( Read more... )

well today was school orientation... which wasnt such a big deal like i thought it would be... but it was good enough with out the bull and all... i got my self registered and i'm almost all set for school... yeah!!! so i'm happy... :P

i hate being taken for granted....

happiness can be described in many many ways... the like the smile that wont wipe off your face... the feeling you get after eating chocolate cake or ice cream... the satisfaction after sex... a kiss in that spot that tickles your neck... feeling the warmth of the sun on your skin after being bottled up in a cold dull building... singing your ( Read more... )

when i say bored i mean bored... i feel numb... like i havent been doing anything... which is sorta the case from work i go home or to josh's house.. and there we watch movies sleep and eat... my life just seems so dull... i mean even sex now seems kind of like rutine... i mean the sex is great but i kind of miss going out and doing something ( Read more... )