You know, try as you will, I am all that I've got.

Court is done with. Probation. Fines. Community service. Psych evaluation. That is the end result. 7 months ago, everything felt great. Felt smooth. That got blown to shit by one ass hole. Chaos prevails again. Life is never smooth folks. Honestly. Never think that nothing can stop you at any point. Life's not out to get you, but it feels that way ( Read more... )

Once again, here I am writing about my never-ending boredom. Still, no license and I'm probably loosing the car. Oh well I guess. Such a bummer. Also, I'm fat. LOL. Just kidding, but it still feels like it. Still not used to weighing 180lbs. Absolutely scary. What am I to do? WORK OUT...EXERCISE.....BUT I'M FUCKING LAZY! So, I'll just have to get ( Read more... )

 So, I've been enjoying my time recently. Well, the best that I can given the circumstances. Despite my previous post that declared my disliking of humans, it's not my "always" feeling. Just frustration. Although, anyone who truly knows me, knows that I've never thought highly of people. Not that they are not capable of great things, but the choice ( Read more... )

 God damnit! No fucking license SUCKS! Honestly, I've gotta break this cycle. What cycle you ask? This long list of bullshit, that I pay for, when someone else makes the situation. Believe me. If I didn't have hatred for people before, I DESPISE human beings now. Who's up for watching the news sometime to laugh at everyone else's hardships? How ( Read more... )

 So, life doesn't always go your way. I've learned this hardcore in the past few months, more than ever. Sometimes, you're involved in things and you get the short end of the stick. No matter your feelings, it will be what it is and you just have to adapt to it. Best lesson that my parents could have taught me, and the best way to execute it would ( Read more... )

 New-ish meds = great results. Been on them for a couple months now, and if you're somehow reading this, you'll know that I probably haven't updated in forever, so, anyways, Zoloft and Respridone? Well, they work, lol. Screw the spelling, they work. Except, ......, Except when you forget to fucking take one dose and you go all loopy. Never a good ( Read more... )

 Quite funny how sometimes, shit just blows up in your face, and you don't even know how or why, it just does. What do you do after such an event? I mean, besides changing your underpants and counting your blessings, how does one even make sense of something they know very little about, while being directly involved. Spooky, kinda ( Read more... )

........ I. Fucking HATE. Odd. Fucking. Numbers.

In Conclusion, Fuck 2009!

And, As if I was here, there I was. A black dot on your heart.